Not to anyone in particular…
You do know it's possible to move between someone who enjoys their life and cope, and someone who doesn't. It's possible to move between these perspectives throughout your entire life.
I started out as an abused child, but then I've worked happily, with minimal issues, enjoying my life, seeing the world, watching myself and others develop and blossom for 35+ years. Then, I started to get the CPTSD flashbacks and the suicidal thoughts again. I can still see that others have joy in the way they live their life. But mine is very much diminished. I still enjoy things, but the daily reminders of being raped outweigh this.
What's shite is being somewhere like SaSu, where I hoped for a more understanding environment, but instead I'm faced with criticism of my life choices - parent, worker, LGBT, even being an 'older' person. I give myself enough shit and while I respect the rights of others to have their own opinions, when people openly criticise my choices (and don't just focus on the shit that their life has dealt them), I get a bit pissed off and reactive.
And, I suspect this is part of my upbringing and potentially closed mind, but I do look at some comments and think to myself how utterly privileged some people are to be in the position to criticise how others live their lives - and I admit, how immature I feel some people's thinking is.