for some people i think they "get better" because they have a specific type of depression/anxiety. the socially acceptable kind, they get burnt out at work at age 20 something and then go on lexapro and start therapy and they're all fixed now yay! they think their experience is universal, they think that it must be that people who aren't getting better just aren't trying enough or getting "help" like they did. when in reality, things don't get better for people like me. planning yout suicide since age 12 is not the same kind of mentall illness, it's something deeper, less treatable. there is no help for people like me. i'm starting to think that the will to live is something that you are unable to gain, you just have to have it.
I may agree on that... though the last part, I now find that debatable.
Most circumstances or when it comes to that, you won't gain it, at least when you're doing the standard approach... However, for some of us, if we're built in a certain way, there is probably a way... But it's not in a way one would expect, or society would find acceptable: through suicide.
Depending on your cause, and whether you know it or not, or what you truly desire, the method may in fact work for you.
Basically, you just need to have a method at hand. Not just any method. But a perfect one, and try to build it yourself. Do it in a series of upgrades and in a way, your life may start improving.
Of course, you may also just die.
In a nutshell, what I'm suggesting is to rather than trying to end your anguish, dive in deep to the point you're pass the point of wanting to die. When you cross that line, you may find yourself going through a series of self improvement until you finally obtain your "happy meal flag".
It's a paradoxical and dangerous solution, but... I think for a lot of us, taking a direct approach seems to only put us a step back. So, why don't we try working backwards towards our goal?
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