The Idea that CTB would be ‘freeing’

[jimmy7754]

I believe a successful CTB would be very 'freeing.' I believe my life has now become unbearable. I have no desire to keep living like this. Is it irrational to think a successful CTB would be freeing? We view death like its a bad thing.. but to me it sounds like a way to liberate myself of all this physical and mental pain.

 

[whatevs]

Everyone that has endured torture knows that death can be freeing. You just need to be miserable enough to experience it. For everyone else it's something to avoid at all costs.

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course ctb would be freeing, when we die it is the end to all of our suffering and misery. When we are dead, nothing can hurt us. It is not irrational to think that way, to me it makes a lot of sense. To me, life is so pointless and unnecessary and staying alive would just mean more pain. Maybe other people see death as a bad thing as it is what they fear and this existence is all we know after all. I find death to be very comforting personally. There is no point to fearing death as it is inevitable for us all, the truth is that our lives do not matter and everything is so temporary.

 

[sleepyghost]

I'm somewhat in the middle - ctb would free me from this life… but would then trap me in death. Commitment issues are one of the few things that keep me around lol

 

[jimmy7754]

It won't be quiet. Because quiet is a quality. If you're aware of it being quiet, you haven't arrived at nothing yet.

It won't be lonely. Lonely is a quality.

It won't hurt. Only things that still exist can feel pain.

It won't be scary if it's actually "nothing."

According to materialists, there won't be any way to sense anything at all, because the body is finished. "Nothing" isn't like anything. It's as inconceivable as figuring out what the edge of the universe looks like — which is likely impossible, because it either somehow doesn't exist, or our normally-conscious human brains aren't wired to comprehend it.

 

[ameliacecelia]

I'm in the boat that it would be freeing. I've left my finances in a mess and I'm trying to tie up those ends to make things easier for my family when I go. I'm looking forward to wrapping up the headache that is paperwork.

 

[xaea13]

CTB would obviously be freeing, but what's also incredibly freeing is having a plan to CTB, and then having a reason to hold off. Whatever that reason might be for you. A future goal, a loved one, whatever. I'll say from personal experience, life is a lot more fun when you have that killswitch with you, because the pressure's off. You're not here by force, you're here by choice.

If you're still on the edge and not committed yet, that's the best advice I can give. Find your "escape route" if you really need it, but just hold off on actually using it. I turned back from an attempt days before I was supposed to do it, more than once. Call it irrational SI or just seeing life from a new perspective, but when you're really heading into a CTB attempt and mentally preparing for the end, life starts to look a lot more tolerable when you've only got days left of it. You start to appreciate the good parts: the people you care about, the good memories from your past, etc. So I decided "you know what, lemme hold off for a year, cross out some items on my bucket list, and just try to enjoy the extra time."

 

[Circles]

On good days I believe death is an escape from life and then I have some bad days where I start believing death isn't the escape we think it is and we live out our lives again and again in an infinite loop or something.

 

[Al_stargate]

Sometimes a person is just in too much pain to endure. Ctb seems freeing but never know what awaits on the other side. I believe ctb-ing brings some difficult karmic implications and that one can't really escape their karma here or thereafter. But that's metaphysical and everyone has their own opinion. For me, it's an incredibly difficult choice that I would never entertain if I wasn't in a great deal of distress.

 

[jimmy7754]

Sometimes a person is just in too much pain to endure. Ctb seems freeing but never know what awaits on the other side. I believe ctb-ing brings some difficult karmic implications and that one can't really escape their karma here or thereafter. But that's metaphysical and everyone has their own opinion. For me, it's an incredibly difficult choice that I would never entertain if I wasn't in a great deal of distress.

I don't believe a ctb brings anything like a karmic implication just hurts those around you but that's my opinion. It's nice to have good karma though. I never did anything wrong to anybody.. but I feel I don't deserve to live in pain. And the unknown is something I would like to believe as a mystery instead of something to fear.

 

[goingcrazy123]

Ctb does seem freeing, but one of the things that keeps me here is the fear of a negative experience in the afterlife. I've been researching NDEs, and many suicides result in a hellish experience as well as the pain my loved ones would endure.
Of course, we can never truly know until after the fact. I wish we could know with certainty what the aftermath would be.

 

[Forgetting5]

This life really would be hell if even death wasn't an escape

 

[Someone123]

I believe a successful CTB would be very 'freeing.' I believe my life has now become unbearable. I have no desire to keep living like this. Is it irrational to think a successful CTB would be freeing? We view death like its a bad thing.. but to me it sounds like a way to liberate myself of all this physical and mental pain.

Based on ndes (near death experiences) this is the most common experience- some people have bad experiences but most seem to have very good experiences. This is based mainly on a variety of nde videos I've seen on youtube.