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lizzywizzy09

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May 11, 2024
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I'm here researching ctb methods and get a notification from my brother inviting me out for Xmas. Fuuuuuuck, the guilt. Why did it have to be this way 😭
 
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AmericanMary

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Apr 30, 2024
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It does hit kinda hard, ay? I've been feeling this too. A legit good guy who has expressed his feelings for me keeps inviting me to do stuff a few weeks out. I feel horrible. Either accept knowing I won't be there or don't accept and seem like a bitch.
 
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lizzywizzy09

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May 11, 2024
460
It does hit kinda hard, ay? I've been feeling this too. A legit good guy who has expressed his feelings for me keeps inviting me to do stuff a few weeks out. I feel horrible. Either accept knowing I won't be there or don't accept and seem like a bitch.
I just know no matter what it's going to be bad. Either I die or I linger with all my physical and mental health issues and burden everyone. I can't stand it.
 
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AmericanMary

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Apr 30, 2024
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I just know no matter what it's going to be bad. Either I die or I linger with all my physical and mental health issues and burden everyone. I can't stand it.
I'm sorry to hear you're struggling. You're brave for talking about it<3
 
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Egroeg91

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Apr 25, 2024
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It always comes when you least expect it, I hate this specific feeling, why can't everything be simple and easy? Some things are just so difficult
 
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justpeachyyyy

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May 14, 2024
21
I've learned to try and look forward to these small things until I inevitably do it because once I'm gone, I'm gone you know. I understand not being able to help feeling guilty, most of us can't help but go through that too. If they truly were able to understand what we go through I think they'd be a bit more understanding of it.
 
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