The final curtain

[NoReasonToLive2023]

I have been accused of something really, really horrible. I know I didn't do it, but quite a few very nasty people seem to think I definitely did it. If I am convicted, the only thing that still matters, my kids, will be stopped from seeing me.

I live near Barnsley in the UK. I was thinking of just jumping out in front of a train, but ideally I don't want to burden anyone else with my decision to end my life.

I want a cheap and simple option to end my life if things do go further. Currently I am favouring jumping from the top of a multistorey carpark, but I am seriously afraid of failing to actually CTB and ending up seriously disabled instead.

Help.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suicide just isn't straightforward in this world sadly, if suicide was simple then this site would never need to exist. I think that if I had the courage for the jumping method I'd find somewhere much higher than that as failing jumping does sound so hellish.
But that really sounds like such a horrible situation you are trapped in, humans really do disgust me with their cruelty, I wish you the best.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry what has happened to you and false accusations are not acceptable at all. If you are really innocent then this could be proven. Jumping is maybe not a suitable option, but what about hanging? You can read about the most recommended methods in their respective megathreads. Klick the Suicide Resource Compilation in the sticky threads! I wish you all the best!

 

[NoReasonToLive2023]

I'm allowing for things to get to court where I can hopefully get cleared. I know that was doing nothing wrong but society has long become poisoned by the likes of social media.

I just want everything to go away. If ending my life does that, so be it.

 

[NoReasonToLive2023]

I'm sorry what has happened to you and false accusations are not acceptable at all. If you are really innocent then this could be proven. Jumping is maybe not a suitable option, but what about hanging? You can read about the most recommended methods in their respective megathreads. Klick the Suicide Resource Compilation in the sticky threads! I wish you all the best!

I have Autism and among other things I struggle with tying knots, so no doubt I'd totally fail if I tried hanging. I also don't have anything suitable to hang from.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

What are you being accused of ??? Maybe there is a way this can be fixed and also who is accusing you of what? Can you please elaborate a bit more if you don't mind me asking …

Actually I think there is this guy called Deepy who committed suicide by jumping from a multi storey car park in Leeds.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I have Autism and among other things I struggle with tying knots, so no doubt I'd totally fail if I tried hanging. I also don't have anything suitable to hang from.

I understand you. Well,did you have a look into the CO Method? Well planned, it should be pretty much painless and successfull, while you'd only needd a grill + charcoal and a tent or a (smaller) room.

 

[NoReasonToLive2023]

What are you being accused of ??? Maybe there is a way this can be fixed and also who is accusing you of what? Can you please elaborate a bit more if you don't mind me asking …

Actually I think there is this guy called Deepy who committed suicide by jumping from a multi storey car park in Leeds.

I had a hernia op just before Christmas. I recovered completely but I have a scar on my groin. This scar was irritating me and I was rubbing it whilst sat a park. A woman came over and accused me of masturbating. Due to my Autism I handled being confronted very poorly, and after being assaulted by the woman's partner while trying to leave the park, was arrested for 'offending public decency'. This has resulted in me being unable to see my kids (my ex has always made this difficult but was forced to comply due to court order), people attacking my car and yelling insults at me, and a long and agonising wait for everything to get to court.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

How could she come to a conclusion that you were masturbating in public?? This sound very strange and with no evidence as such …. You would have been arrested for public indecency only if there was evidence not because of hearsay …. The police would want evidence for that sort of accusations and they won't stop you from seeing your kids unless if there was proper evidence.

 

[NoReasonToLive2023]

How could she come to a conclusion that you were masturbating in public?? This sound very strange and with no evidence as such …. You would have been arrested for public indecency only if there was evidence not because of hearsay …. The police would want evidence for that sort of accusations and they won't stop you from seeing your kids unless if there was proper evidence.

The 'evidence' is a video she took, this is of my back. You can just about see me doing my trousers up, but aside from her yelling 'you were masturbating to kids' there's no sign of me doing anything wrong.

Apparently 'three independent statements' is enough that it will at least be considered from prosecution. I dispute the independence of witnesses that were walking up after the woman started screaming, I'm pretty sure she was trying to round people up - on a Facebook post (since deleted) she even mentioned she was trying to get another woman to 'come back'.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

So surely if there is no evidence of you masturbating then why would the police take this woman's word as gospel??? It's all very strange, so are you still planning on completing ctb with the method that you mentioned earlier ??

 

[NoReasonToLive2023]

So surely if there is no evidence of you masturbating then why would the police take this woman's word as gospel??? It's all very strange, so are you still planning on completing ctb with the method that you mentioned earlier ??

I will CTB if I am found guilty, my life is almost completely worthless anyway and having that kind of label would destroy what little value I have as a father.

Apparently one of the reasons for them arresting me and investigating is actually for MY safety - I live in very rough part of England and there have already been issues of 'mob justice' - mostly local teenagers who think they are hard gangsters.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

I will CTB if I am found guilty, my life is almost completely worthless anyway and having that kind of label would destroy what little value I have as a father.

Apparently one of the reasons for them arresting me and investigating is actually for MY safety - I live in very rough part of England and there have already been issues of 'mob justice' - mostly local teenagers who think they are hard gangsters.

They can only arrest you if you are guilty, hahah at gangsters. No one should do that to you unless if there is irrefutable evidence that you are guilty.

Anyway I wish you all the best.

 

[Departme]

There is no proof of anything from what you say, your version of events is quite plausible and I'd be surprised if it even came before the courts. A court of law must also find you guilty beyond reasonable doubt and there is no chance of you being convicted if what you say is true, and anybody giving evidence is required to swear under oath so unless they bear face lie then you'll be okay. The interim period I appreciate is difficult, all I can suggest is keeping your head down and if anybody says anything then you can only explain it how it is and you are the victim here of some crazy woman and her thug partner. Do you have other family who can support you?

 

[NoReasonToLive2023]

Do you have other family who can support you?

I'm in Yorkshire, my parents and sister are in Somerset.

 

[Departme]

I appreciate your children etc, but given you are not seeing them right now then maybe a stay in Somerset may give you time to reset and find some peace. In the fullness of time you'll be cleared and then can look to perhaps move closer again. It is a real shame with your autism also that you have no support around you, I can appreciate why you want it all to go away.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

Talking about Somerset I know of this ex of mine who was in the closet and who had his parents live in Somerset this demon took a naked video of me and was threatening to post it online and I reported him to the police. He was truly unhinged and he was so angry when I reported him to the police. It's so funny to me how went to look for another man on social media to speak badly about me. I hope in the future he can be honest with himself and just accept his sexuality instead of lying on me because he called me a rat. He called me a liar but he lied about me accusing of someone of rape (only a sick person can do that and lie to that extent).

I can't wait to depart this world and I'm running out of time because I truly hate it here.

Law I know and I remember what you told me just come out of the closet and set yourself free.

 

[NoReasonToLive2023]

I appreciate your children etc, but given you are not seeing them right now then maybe a stay in Somerset may give you time to reset and find some peace. In the fullness of time you'll be cleared and then can look to perhaps move closer again. It is a real shame with your autism also that you have no support around you, I can appreciate why you want it all to go away.

I have bail conditions that prohibit me from having 'unsupervised' contact with under 18s. My mum regularly looks after my 3 year old niece - me being there right now would make that very difficult indeed.

Also if I do decide to CTB /before/ it goes to court, I don't know of anywhere suitable, plus I don't want any of my family having to be the ones to find me.

 

[NoReasonToLive2023]

Has anyone ever tried to CTB by filling a car with gas, such as from a tank for a barbecue, then lighting a flame? Would this work or would I risk survival?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Has anyone ever tried to CTB by filling a car with gas, such as from a tank for a barbecue, then lighting a flame? Would this work or would I risk survival?

I don't know if this is a good idea, yes the car would probably explode, for best results you would need to have the exact BBQ-gas mix (which is usually propane / butane) with the the amount of oxygen in the car. I don't know how effective that would be but I would say it's more likely to have servere injuries (burnt skin and so on) but sudden death, depending on the strength of the explosion. The explosion could attrackt unwanted attention, too.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I live in East Yorkshire.
The Humber bridge has been the location for successful suicides, for a while now.
I have a backup plan to CTB here.
I would have a strong backpack filled with approx 30 pounds of sand. Drink plenty of vodka before jumping.
The bottom of the Humber River is very deep mud, so with the weighted backpack my body would sink into the mud.
I don't want my body found, and no funeral.

 

[ChildrensITV]

I empathize with your situation.

You appear to have trouble with social cues so I was wondering how you even managed to get a wife in the first place? How tough was the relationship for you? How long did it last?

 

[NoReasonToLive2023]

I empathize with your situation.

You appear to have trouble with social cues so I was wondering how you even managed to get a wife in the first place? How tough was the relationship for you? How long did it last?

I believe that my now ex-wife had pretty much planned everything. She pretended to be in love with me, manipulated me into a relationship, into getting married (she basically kept on telling me what a bad man I was because I hadn't proposed), and into having children with her. All so she could later leave me for another man and pretend that she'd been abused.

I don't believe that she any feelings for me, nor that she actually cares about her own children. She now has a daughter with her new husband - this child was conceived only 6 weeks after she left me.

 

[ChildrensITV]

I believe that my now ex-wife had pretty much planned everything. She pretended to be in love with me, manipulated me into a relationship, into getting married (she basically kept on telling me what a bad man I was because I hadn't proposed), and into having children with her. All so she could later leave me for another man and pretend that she'd been abused.

I don't believe that she any feelings for me, nor that she actually cares about her own children. She now has a daughter with her new husband - this child was conceived only 6 weeks after she left me.

That is horrible. I am sorry you went through that. Do you think you will ever be able to CTB because you have parents alive and children to consider.

 

[NoReasonToLive2023]

That is horrible. I am sorry you went through that. Do you think you will ever be able to CTB because you have parents alive and children to consider.

I fully intend to CTB if I am convicted of what I've been accused of. I have even started writing a goodbye letter, on Google Drive. If and when I CTB, I'll send that live moments before I do it.

One drawback is I have noticed the car park I want to use has high fences on the sides. Why are we forced to be alive when we want to be dead?

 

[Slasher]

seems unlikely that you'll get prosecuted as for lack of evidence, idk how it is in the uk but here in that situation you'd be cleared cause there just isn't enough concrete evidence. it's horrible how people can be sometimes and I hope you get the apology you deserve.