Venting The feeling that God has abandoned you

[GraySloth]

For a long time, in the back of my mind, I always held out hope that God, the universe, or something out there would help me eventually. I thought that maybe all my suffering was leading up to something, some grand lesson and at the end of it I would be able to say it was all worth it. But that's gone now, I felt it leave me. I know the exact moment it happened; A rainbow appeared in front of my house and I stared at it, and I couldn't enjoy it, and it was at that moment it hit me, that it can never be worth it now. The debt of my life is too great to pay. God can't help me because he owes me more than he has. So it's no longer a question any more, I know God has abandoned me, my desperate prayers went unanswered and now it's too late. It was all pointless, all meaningless, the future is certain and it is the worst possible one.

 

[MyShadow]

For a long time, in the back of my mind, I always held out hope that God, the universe, or something out there would help me eventually. I thought that maybe all my suffering was leading up to something, some grand lesson and at the end of it I would be able to say it was all worth it. But that's gone now, I felt it leave me. I know the exact moment it happened; A rainbow appeared in front of my house and I stared at it, and I couldn't enjoy it, and it was at that moment it hit me, that it can never be worth it now. The debt of my life is to great to pay. God can't help me because he owes me more than he has. So it's no longer a question any more, I know God has abandoned me, my desperate prayers went unanswered and now it's too late,. It was all pointless, all meaningless, the future is certain and it is the worst possible one.

As a man who struggles with the concept of faith, I can only offer you this. The human conditions is difficult and rooted in suffering. I've found that the trick to living is to find those moments that lift you out of that suffering, even if just for a few moments, and just be in that moment for as long as possible.

I am sorry that you are suffering and hope you can find your way out of the darkness.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm sorry for your suffering. In truth, I'm unsure about whether a God even exists. I suppose my hope is that they don't. Partly because of how you and a lot of others feel. I imagine it would in fact be easy for God to end a person's suffering or better still, to have designed us so that we don't suffer. I can only conclude that inflicting suffering was a part of their plan. And, what kind of being does that? Certainly not one I want to worship.

 

[persepexa]

For a long time, in the back of my mind, I always held out hope that God, the universe, or something out there would help me eventually. I thought that maybe all my suffering was leading up to something, some grand lesson and at the end of it I would be able to say it was all worth it. But that's gone now, I felt it leave me. I know the exact moment it happened; A rainbow appeared in front of my house and I stared at it, and I couldn't enjoy it, and it was at that moment it hit me, that it can never be worth it now. The debt of my life is to great to pay. God can't help me because he owes me more than he has. So it's no longer a question any more, I know God has abandoned me, my desperate prayers went unanswered and now it's too late,. It was all pointless, all meaningless, the future is certain and it is the worst possible one

As someone who went to Catholic school since the age of 5 until the age of 22 (Catholic college whoo!), I gave up on faith a long time ago. But from a Catholic perspective, not sure your denomination but they're all pretty much the same, God is always there if you want Him to be. It's easy to see God in the good moments. Everyone thanks God then. But God is also in the hard moments. Don't pray to Him to change your circumstances. Pray to Him for the strength to get through it. In the Bible, God is like a distant parent. He won't fight your battles for you, but he's still rooting for you. From a non-religious perspective, I really hope you get through whatever it is you're going through at the moment and I hope you can find some peace in this awful world. Stay strong.