The fall into consciousness

[OnMyLast Legs]

Every morning I start to regain consciousness with some kind of dream, in some world where I'm not myself, like a video game. Over a few minutes I remember who I am and what I've made of my life. Oh s**t. And I want to die. Anyone else waking up this way?

 

[idiotmother]

Similarly I start waking up and am hit full force with my reality of my illness and probably death approaching. It's a terrible feeling, it gives me a hit of adrenaline in my heart, and I wish that I was back in my dreams.

 

[rustcohle4life]

Nope. I rarely have dreams that i can remember.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Nope. I rarely have dreams that i can remember.

Honestly it's the trazodone. And I'm still not really dreaming, it could be called wandering thoughts or disorientation when I wake up.

 

[ummwhaaat]

Honestly it's the trazodone. And I'm still not really dreaming, it could be called wandering thoughts or disorientation when I wake up.

I'm on Duloxetine and Quetiapine (low dose, for helping with sleep) - I get some intense hallucinations most of the time when I'm going to sleep/waking up too. I don't read too much into it. It was kind of scary at first, but my psychiatrist told me it's not psychosis-related or anything because I don't get paranoid etc. and I'm aware that they are just hallucionations.