jussrav
Experienced
- Sep 9, 2023
- 237
So after alot of though going to ctb tonight. I know I post on here alot saying I will do this and that etc but I have decided tonight is the night. I am tired of suffering 24 7 with mental health. Been totally messed about by health professionals mental state terrible also long covid means I cant even eat anymore tge pains are terrible. I envy people with good health like how I used to have pre covid. For the past few weeks I have seriously been possessed by negativity and demonic things.its like I felt someone strangling my throat when I thought negative I couldn't eat everything I saw was negative and headaches etc and the pains in stomach was like I was witnessing the devil first hand. They say heaven and hell is in the mind and on this earth. So I will be glad to go. In the end of the day I am exhausted of my life and problems eg sleeping waking up hourly. I regret that I made wrong decisions that got me here. Anyway I cant wait for sn so I've decided will use lots of tramadol and alcohol. Hoping this works. Another second on this planet will kill me. Thanlyou all