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thedevilwithin

thedevilwithin

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Oct 4, 2023
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my head is pounding from the bad thoughts. i feel so empty inside it hurts. i don't even know how to fully explain this feeling but it's torture. i haven't cried in a very long time but i'm getting teary eyed while writing this. i want to escape this mind and body so fucking bad. i want to be a new person. i hate me so fucking much.
 
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IWishToDie

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Dec 31, 2023
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Hope you get some good sleep tonight @thedevilwithin
my head is pounding from the bad thoughts. i feel so empty inside it hurts. i don't even know how to fully explain this feeling but it's torture. i haven't cried in a very long time but i'm getting teary eyed while writing this. i want to escape this mind and body so fucking bad. i want to be a new person. i hate me so fucking much.
 
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hopeless08

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my head is pounding from the bad thoughts. i feel so empty inside it hurts. i don't even know how to fully explain this feeling but it's torture. i haven't cried in a very long time but i'm getting teary eyed while writing this. i want to escape this mind and body so fucking bad. i want to be a new person. i hate me so fucking much.
I understand you perfectly, I hate myself, I hate everything about me, I'm actually disgusting with myself and it really painful and extremely lonely to feel that way. I can't go out because I don't want people's eyes on me. I as well don't cry anymore but when I post my feelings on here, I break down, I guess it's because we are letting things out, talking about our feelings, which you can't really talk to anyone about. This site, you guys mean a lot to me… I spend all my time on here.🥲
 
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thedevilwithin

anima vestra
Oct 4, 2023
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Hope you get some good sleep tonight @thedevilwithin
thank you🖤
I understand you perfectly, I hate myself, I hate everything about me, I'm actually disgusting with myself and it really painful and extremely lonely to feel that way. I can't go out because I don't want people's eyes on me. I as well don't cry anymore but when I post my feelings on here, I break down, I guess it's because we are letting things out, talking about our feelings, which you can't really talk to anyone about. This site, you guys mean a lot to me… I spend all my time on here.🥲
you put it into words exactly. i don't speak to anyone but on here there's no wall i have to hold up. i'm sorry you feel this feeling. it's truly torture. from one stranger to another, i love you🖤
 
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hopeless08

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Yes it's absolute torture, it gets to the point that the emotional pain is so intense that it becomes physical pain, it's literally hard to breathe… I feel for you as I know exactly how you're feeling and the unbearable pain we are having to endure..
I just want to find a way out so badly, this hurts too much, I can't take anymore.❤️
 
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