10th March 2025.
Years of built up emotions, regrets, failings came crashing down on me. I've never cried so hard in my life. That day something changed in me. It truly dawned on me how much of my life I've wasted. How I've failed at life. How toxic I've been to everyone around me.
I thought things would finally change after years of stagnation. I thought this might be a turning point. For a few days after I had more motivation to change my life but that soon faded. Over a year later and I'm still in the same position.
I will never be satisfied with my life and I will never be able to live life like a normal person. I don't want to live for decades as a depressed failure, but that's what's going to happen. I don't see myself realistically CTB so I feel trapped.
Years of built up emotions, regrets, failings came crashing down on me. I've never cried so hard in my life. That day something changed in me. It truly dawned on me how much of my life I've wasted. How I've failed at life. How toxic I've been to everyone around me.
I thought things would finally change after years of stagnation. I thought this might be a turning point. For a few days after I had more motivation to change my life but that soon faded. Over a year later and I'm still in the same position.
I will never be satisfied with my life and I will never be able to live life like a normal person. I don't want to live for decades as a depressed failure, but that's what's going to happen. I don't see myself realistically CTB so I feel trapped.
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