Discussion The day of our sons suicide article

[GarageKarate07]

Oh I don't mind anyone asking, she took my gun I gave her a month prior because she was starting to behave strangely, thinking someone was breaking into our house, this was after she told me she didn't "need to take her antidepressants anymore." So I gave her my gun thinking she'd be safe in our apartment, she drove to a spot in town, shot herself and had a very painful stroke until she bled out and died. I still remember it all, made me sick anytime I see blood anymore.

How long ago was this? Im only asking because those pains never go away. They stick and it hurts for a long time.

 

[Tkmiz_Tsukumizu]

How long ago was this? Im only asking because those pains never go away. They stick and it hurts for a long time.

Oh its not problem, I don't think it will ever stop hurting but you learn to live with it. It happened February 19th 2020 at 2:36pm My father says I need to move on though but if only he knew how difficult it is. Have you lost someone significant?

 

[GarageKarate07]

Oh its not problem, I don't think it will ever stop hurting but you learn to live with it. It happened February 19th 2020 at 2:36pm My father says I need to move on though but if only he knew how difficult it is. Have you lost someone significant?

Yes a few people. I lost a sister long ago and recently (5 years ago) I lost my son. The feelings it brings up are always hard. It is VERY difficult.

 

[Tkmiz_Tsukumizu]

Yes a few people. I lost a sister long ago and recently (5 years ago) I lost my son. The feelings it brings up are always hard. It is VERY difficult.

I can only imagine losing a child is much harder than losing someone else. Even losing your parent is expected but living past your child must be hard. Has anything helped with those loses?

Yes a few people. I lost a sister long ago and recently (5 years ago) I lost my son. The feelings it brings up are always hard. It is VERY difficult.

One thing that helps me is not remembering how she died, but remembering how she lived in life and the person she was, she was honestly the most caring person I knew and impacted thousands of people. Almost 1000 people came to her funeral and it was amazing.

 

[GarageKarate07]

I can only imagine losing a child is much harder than losing someone else. Even losing your parent is expected but living past your child must be hard. Has anything helped with those loses?

One thing that helps me is not remembering how she died, but remembering how she lived in life and the person she was, she was honestly the most caring person I knew and impacted thousands of people. Almost 1000 people came to her funeral and it was amazing.

Losing anyone is hard. This place is so difficult and then your loved ones leave and you feel alone. Anyone's loss is very important and hard. Thats where compassion and brotherhood/sisterhood come in. If you judge a person completely its not fair. We all have many parts to set to know and love.
Yes, remembering them in the best of times is a very good thing. I was just visiting my friends mothers grave today actually. It's on the other side of the state about a 4 hour drive. I try to see her when I go that far. I remember many good days with her.

 

[the_final_countdown]

Family loves me.

but I would trade all of their love in a heartbeat to not be suffering anymore.

Easily.

It's time to go...Car crash? Maybe soon. Need to find a wall. Something.

liberate me from this hell.

 

[LifeQuitter2018]

Losing anyone is hard.

It depends on the person, the family and the level of relationship honestly.

When my grand-mother and grand-father died, I did not shed a tear. I didn't even feel sad tbh. I only felt a little bit gloomy in the grand-mother' funeral but that was very short feeling. No hard feeling whatsoever.

I also joined some funerals of several relatives but I didn't see people feeling sad much. One of my aunt even wished her husband to die quicker because he got large intestine cancer, he did nothing but eating, sleeping and shitting on his own bed all day.