The day is getting closer and closer

[bl33ding_heart]

In 15 days I can purchase sn. I can be free from all of my troubles. The days are passing by and the time is getting closer and closer. It honestly doesn't feel real. I'm still struggling so much every single day, but there's this strange sense of comfort that I feel knowing all of the pain I have been feeling will come to and end and my soul will finally be at peace. I know sn is painful, and I used to be adamant on having a painless method before. Like jumping off a building/bridge or in front of a train. But I'm at a point where I simply don't care anymore. As long as I will be able to experience the peace which is an absence of my mind and consciousness. Any pain will be worth it. My life has been an excruciatingly painful one filled mostly with pain and sadness. And I finally get to take the initiative and change that for myself, and have liberty from my suffering.

 

[peacebenow]

is there something special happening in 15 days? oh, maybe a paycheck or something. I am glad that you are feeling this sense of comfort.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

is there something special happening in 15 days? oh, maybe a paycheck or something. I am glad that you are feeling this sense of comfort.

My birthday will be in 14 days and I'll receive money which I can use to buy sn. I plan to buy it the following day so I can at least try to enjoy my birthday before I plan to die lol.

 

[Aflame5926]

i hope it wont be painfull at all. and just go quickly.

but dont do it on a whimp or impulse. prepare and lock in.
probally unneeded words but beter to have it said it then not.

keep in there for few weeks