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war-is-lost

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Apr 15, 2018
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So I have finally left my home en route to the hotel which is in another State. I don't know how I feel, the calmness which has been with me for the last few weeks is slowly turning into a kind of desperate acceptance of my final fate.
 
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Jun 16, 2018
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I will probably be on the road soon as well. I've been waiting for this for so long, but now that it's becoming a reality I feel "attacked" by all sorts of delusional hopes and other monsters. I hope I will be able to fight them all and find my final escape. Keep us posted and good luck!
 
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war-is-lost

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Apr 15, 2018
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I will probably be on the road soon as well. I've been waiting for this for so long, but now that it's becoming a reality I feel "attacked" by all sorts of delusional hopes and other monsters. I hope I will be able to fight them all and find my final escape. Keep us posted and good luck!

Thank you, it's like the enormity of the whole thing is starting to sink in after I left home for the sole purpose of killing myself. And I have been planning this for over 6 months, I would have thought I have already accepted my fate. And BTW, best of luck to you too.
 
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millefeui

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Mar 31, 2018
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Good luck. Whatever you are looking for, I hope you may find it.
 
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war-is-lost

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Anarchy

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Jul 9, 2018
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Hope it all goes well for you - congrats for finally making your plan happen.
 
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Definitelyworried

Definitelyworried

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Jun 19, 2018
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So I have finally left my home en route to the hotel which is in another State. I don't know how I feel, the calmness which has been with me for the last few weeks is slowly turning into a kind of desperate acceptance of my final fate.
I don't know what to say.
I've planned out death dates, but it's not an easy thing to go through with it.
Only one time I tried going through with it, but my method was not effective enough, I had planned for the 16th of this month, but now I'm not sure.
I can't encourage or discourage you from doing it.
I know what you are feeling is not easy.
 
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anna

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Mar 18, 2018
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I hope to leave this week too.
I wish you the best.
Let everything go well and find the peace you need.
 
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war-is-lost

Student
Apr 15, 2018
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I don't know what to say.
I've planned out death dates, but it's not an easy thing to go through with it.
Only one time I tried going through with it, but my method was not effective enough, I had planned for the 16th of this month, but now I'm not sure.
I can't encourage or discourage you from doing it.
I know what you are feeling is not easy.

It's a strange feeling, a bit unsettling at first but I have gone over my decision and method million of times, thus I do have the comfort of knowing I am making the right decision. If need be, I can always down some liquid courage.
 
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war-is-lost

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Apr 15, 2018
124
I hope to leave this week too.
I wish you the best.
Let everything go well and find the peace you need.

Thank you and I wish everything would go as planned for you. See you on the other side.
 
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Definitelyworried

Definitelyworried

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Jun 19, 2018
551
The days before the deadline are always so nightmarish, everytime I feel like my day is getting close, I'm so tired and restless at the same time. It does however make you long for releif, but then the day comes and everything becomes so unreal.
At least that was my experience.
 
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war-is-lost

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Apr 15, 2018
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The days before the deadline are always so nightmarish, everytime I feel like my day is getting close I'm so tired and restless at the same time. It does however make you long for releif, but then the day comes and everything becomes so unreal.
At least that was my experience.

Yeah, the emotions can fluctuate quite a bit during those times which is why benzos and alcohol is useful.
 
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Definitelyworried

Definitelyworried

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Jun 19, 2018
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If you look at the people my profile is following, most of them are people who posted their last goodbye here, never to he heard from.
I'll add you to the list whether you do or don't make it.
 
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war-is-lost

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Apr 15, 2018
124
If you look at the people my profile is following, most of them are people who posted their last goodbye here, never to he heard from.
I'll add you to the list whether you do or don't make it.

Sure, no probs. Wow so 8 people have supposedly CTB.
 
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Definitelyworried

Definitelyworried

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Jun 19, 2018
551
4 seem a sure death
1 maybe the other ones have the same method you do,
Once someone gets N, it's pretty serious.
 
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war-is-lost

Student
Apr 15, 2018
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4 seem a sure death
1 maybe the other ones have the same method you do,
Once someone gets N, it's pretty serious.

Well, I hope they all managed to find peace.
 
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Definitelyworried

Member
Jun 19, 2018
551
People who I feel relatively sure that are gone.

uselessanon42

Sonnenblume

Malice1

mistoras

2 people who I'm not sure.

Cloudstar

Lucas







 
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Lara Francis

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
1,627
I hope you find peace and everything runs smoothly.xx
 
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war-is-lost

Student
Apr 15, 2018
124
I hope you find peace and everything runs smoothly.xx

Thank you, I have read about your struggles. I hope you can resolve them ASAP and find the peace you deserve.
 
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Definitelyworried

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Jun 19, 2018
551
I refuse to log in to Facebook anymore but i'm guessing you can creep on the profiles of those who still have accounts?

Not surprising that 99% of the suicides are either gunshot or hanging.
Yeah on some of the names you can do web searches. Not all of them though.
 
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Tiburcio

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People who I feel relatively sure that are gone.

uselessanon42

Sonnenblume

Malice1

mistoras

2 people who I'm not sure.

Cloudstar

Lucas






I also have a list with everyone who confirmed their deaths. This post was useful, thank you for update my list.
 
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Smilla

Smilla

Visionary
Apr 30, 2018
2,549
Find your peace, War. We will miss you here until it's our turn and maybe we can all have a party.

RIP if you decided to go.
 
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war-is-lost

Student
Apr 15, 2018
124
Find your peace, War. We will miss you here until it's our turn and maybe we can all have a party.

RIP if you decided to go.
Thanks, Smilla. I hope you will find your peace, too. Godspeed
 

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