beaten96
Member
- Jan 26, 2024
- 48
The big day is coming! Either tomorrow or the next day! I went back on lexapro for the last week to give me the energy.. if the first plan goes wrong I figure I'll be so crazy ill be ready to jump In front of a train..
They're in deep shit too..
They need me alive..
I mean mega deep shit..
That is what I was lacking before.. the actual energy to go through with it., I was actually too depressed to kill myself..
Use the drugs they used against me for so many years against them..
What hope is left.. there isn't any hope.. what hope..
I mean I'm fucking so many doctors.. so many
Lawyers.. I mean I'm fuuucking everybody..
And I mean everybody..
My family.. I'm fucking everybody..
It will all be over soon.. and the charade that is life and love and hope and all the rest of the fucking crocks of shit are over..
It all meant nothing..
Wish me luck!
They're in deep shit too..
They need me alive..
I mean mega deep shit..
That is what I was lacking before.. the actual energy to go through with it., I was actually too depressed to kill myself..
Use the drugs they used against me for so many years against them..
What hope is left.. there isn't any hope.. what hope..
I mean I'm fucking so many doctors.. so many
Lawyers.. I mean I'm fuuucking everybody..
And I mean everybody..
My family.. I'm fucking everybody..
It will all be over soon.. and the charade that is life and love and hope and all the rest of the fucking crocks of shit are over..
It all meant nothing..
Wish me luck!