The anxiety and meltdowns are too much to handle

[boilingrage]

I can barely take it. The anxiety is overwhelming and the meltdowns have increased. I've dealt with undiagnosed problems for a decade now and am finally going to a psychiatrist. I want them to drug me up so badly. I can't handle being at work. I cry in hiding on breaks. How long does it take before they csn give me meds? It's so unbearable I can barely type. I can't take it. I feel faint, my heart races all the time. I can barely concentrate. I hope they give me good meds because I sometimes feel like my only solution would be to hang myself.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Anxiety is the worst feeling ever I hope you will get some drugs or whatever that may help.

 

[Kyrok]

@boilingrage , I've been in the same boat . I had a nervous breakdown last year that has forever damaged my professional reputation. I was ready to say fuck-it-all and did something that still hounds me.

Try not to do the same. Meds might make a difference. I'm now on Effexor and my anxiety is still there, but not as intense.

If you can't get into a psychiatrist right away, see if your primary care doctor can prescribe something.

 

[discokicks]

I also suffer from anxiety. It's debilitating. It's not a long term solution but some find weed or alcohol helps in the short term

 

[ArtVandelay]

How long does it take before they csn give me meds?

Prescribing drugs is more or less the only thing psychiatrists do, so I would assume on the first visit. That's what they did for me anyway. It can take some time to find the meds that work best for you though. Make sure they know unbearable your current situation is, although I wouldn't recommend mentioning that you want to kill yourself. At least not right away.

 

[boilingrage]

Thanks for the feedback. I really appreciate it. Today is a much better day. The anxiety is mostly contained right now. I'm so close to my appointment.

 

[AutumnEmbers]

Thanks for the feedback. I really appreciate it. Today is a much better day. The anxiety is mostly contained right now. I'm so close to my appointment.

I'm glad you're feeling better. I suffer from severe anxiety also, so I understand what you're going through.

Because of the potential side effects of medication, I would advise trying therapy first and using meds as a last resort. However, I understand that you may not be able to wait that long. Whichever you choose, I hope you find a way to manage your anxiety so that it becomes bearable.

 

[TiredHorse]

I can barely take it. The anxiety is overwhelming and the meltdowns have increased. [...] It's so unbearable I can barely type. I can't take it. I feel faint, my heart races all the time. I can barely concentrate.

This perfectly describes how I feel. I am so very sorry you're feeling it too. It is horrible.

I refuse to use pharmaceuticals, for any number of reasons, but I did have a great deal of success with microdosing, especially as regards the paralyzing anxiety. I eventually developed a tolerance to the shrooms and LSD I was microdosing with, but that seems to be typical of me (with all meds), and not the common experience. If you have access to either shrooms or LSD and are inclined to try microdosing, I recommend it highly for anxiety. This was my resource for information: https://thethirdwave.co/

 

[Allpainnogain]

This perfectly describes how I feel. I am so very sorry you're feeling it too. It is horrible.

I refuse to use pharmaceuticals, for any number of reasons, but I did have a great deal of success with microdosing, especially as regards the paralyzing anxiety. I eventually developed a tolerance to the shrooms and LSD I was microdosing with, but that seems to be typical of me (with all meds), and not the common experience. If you have access to either shrooms or LSD and are inclined to try microdosing, I recommend it highly for anxiety. This was my resource for information: https://thethirdwave.co/

Where can you get it from?

 

[Scarlett]

I can barely take it. The anxiety is overwhelming and the meltdowns have increased. I've dealt with undiagnosed problems for a decade now and am finally going to a psychiatrist. I want them to drug me up so badly. I can't handle being at work. I cry in hiding on breaks. How long does it take before they csn give me meds? It's so unbearable I can barely type. I can't take it. I feel faint, my heart races all the time. I can barely concentrate. I hope they give me good meds because I sometimes feel like my only solution would be to hang myself.

I know how terrible it is my lovely but small changes can make a BIG difference. I used to cry on the way to work every day because I was scared to drive in case something went wrong or I made a mistake at work. Sometimes taking a step back and writing down all the things that make you anxious and then finding ways to get around it can help, might mean changing your job or moving away. I used to use alcohol to help with my anxiety but that just created 10x more problems. Meds and anxiety are a funny thing- great when you have a panic attack and can't breathe but daily stuff you need to fake it til you make it. My therapist used to say my suicide plan was the only thing keeping my anxiety in check like a safety net...feel the fear and do it anyway and if it all goes tits up I'll just kill myself...

 

[Mircea]

Been dealing with this sort of thing every day for long over a decade. In recent years things have only gotten worse and worse. It's ultimately why I don't believe there can be any benefit to me continuing this life, as there have been no signs in years of any positive change in direction. I understand very well how what you mentioned must feel like.

 

[deathenvoy]

So I have suicidal depression and panic attacks for 2 years. I have been in 5 mental wards, went through exhausting 6 months therapy and I thought things will be better. I found a job, moved to different city. I lasted in my new job 4 days. At 4th day I had severe panic attack that I didn't know what is going around me. I asked my boss to direct me to my home. Things were getting worse so I went to another mental ward for 3 weeks. I was put on paroxetine and my anxiety is better now but I am not going back to my job. I had enough, I have done everything I could to live. Now I just want to die. And I will off myself as soon as I will get N.

 

[Dan23]

So I have suicidal depression and panic attacks for 2 years. I have been in 5 mental wards, went through exhausting 6 months therapy and I thought things will be better. I found a job, moved to different city. I lasted in my new job 4 days. At 4th day I had severe panic attack that I didn't know what is going around me. I asked my boss to direct me to my home. Things were getting worse so I went to another mental ward for 3 weeks. I was put on paroxetine and my anxiety is better now but I am not going back to my job. I had enough, I have done everything I could to live. Now I just want to die. And I will off myself as soon as I will get N.

I feel you....

I've been to the ward too many times, and through so much therapy and so many medications and nothing has worked.... I've only gotten worse. When I found out about N, I felt SO much better. In the state I'm in now, if I didn't have this as an option I would be beyond dead in a living body.

I can't work-- feel pretty much brain-dead.. Previous 4.0 student in high school and college, but had to leave after psych symptoms after prolonged marijuana use..

never been the same since. But even before that, was never happy.

never had truly satisfying relationships.
I just ordered some high potency CBD full spectrum oil, along with some organic hemp flower to smoke..

Really hoping it will ease my constant anxiety..

Will update if it helps. I've tried the isolate cbd oils but this is supposed to be different.

 

[Allpainnogain]

I feel you....

I've been to the ward too many times, and through so much therapy and so many medications and nothing has worked.... I've only gotten worse. When I found out about N, I felt SO much better. In the state I'm in now, if I didn't have this as an option I would be beyond dead in a living body.

I can't work-- feel pretty much brain-dead.. Previous 4.0 student in high school and college, but had to leave after psych symptoms after prolonged marijuana use..

never been the same since. But even before that, was never happy.

never had truly satisfying relationships.
I just ordered some high potency CBD full spectrum oil, along with some organic hemp flower to smoke..

Really hoping it will ease my constant anxiety..

Will update if it helps. I've tried the isolate cbd oils but this is supposed to be different.

What cbd oil did you order? My anxiety is at an all time home gh can not function or think

 

[Dan23]

What cbd oil did you order? My anxiety is at an all time home gh can not function or think

someone on reddit recommended it to me. Its from ExtractLabs and I got the extra strength 4000mg.. I'm not sure how I'm going to go about the dosing of it but we'll see. They just shipped it out today.

 

[JadedGray]

I can barely take it. The anxiety is overwhelming and the meltdowns have increased. I've dealt with undiagnosed problems for a decade now and am finally going to a psychiatrist. I want them to drug me up so badly. I can't handle being at work. I cry in hiding on breaks. How long does it take before they csn give me meds? It's so unbearable I can barely type. I can't take it. I feel faint, my heart races all the time. I can barely concentrate. I hope they give me good meds because I sometimes feel like my only solution would be to hang myself.

I understand how you're feeling. Anxiety can be worse than depression sometimes. The constant feeling of being on edge and on high alert is tiring. After going through an episode of anxiety, the depression that comes after can almost feel calming, since at the very least you don't feel like you're about to snap.

 

[boilingrage]

I understand how you're feeling. Anxiety can be worse than depression sometimes. The constant feeling of being on edge and on high alert is tiring. After going through an episode of anxiety, the depression that comes after can almost feel calming, since at the very least you don't feel like you're about to snap.

That's exactly how I feel. My anxiety is a raging kind. I feel angry and like I could go off any minute. At least the depression puts me to sleep. Sleep allows me to escape most of the time, except for when all my troubles seep into my nightmares...

 

[JadedGray]

That's exactly how I feel. My anxiety is a raging kind. I feel angry and like I could go off any minute. At least the depression puts me to sleep. Sleep allows me to escape most of the time, except for when all my troubles seep into my nightmares...

Well, I'm glad that you're able to escape the horrible feeling of Anxiety for a while, even if it stems from Depression. At least something good can come out of it. I have anger problems too, but I'm able to calm down when the Depression takes over from the Anxiety.