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Marktheghost

Marktheghost

Paragon
Feb 20, 2020
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So, after 23 years of knowing that I want to kill myself, now I've finally got the chance to do it, why am I feeling unsure about it?
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
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Because of your survival instinct. It's hard to beat that as*hole.
 
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rs929

Mage
Dec 18, 2020
580
I don't necessarily agree with this. SI kicks in when you're just about to do it, like when you're contemplating the floor from 20 stories above, or grasping for air while doing partial, or when you know there's no turning back after ingesting that SN. Instinct kicks in when you're about to execute it.
But OP is in the planning stage. Maybe he is actually having second thoughts.
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
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SI kicks in when you're just about to do it,
I think it's a lot more devious and cunning that that. I think it's operating in the background at all times, at least in my case.
I know I should ctb immediately and yet I don't, I keep finding things to enjoy, really small pitiful things, a new food, a new movie, things that shouldn't stop me.
 
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KleinerWolf

KleinerWolf

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Apr 30, 2020
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I think it's hard to let go if you even have a tiny bit of hope or something to work with.

Also, no one wants to die.
There's something to do with non-existence and potential regrets in life that people still hold onto.
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
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Killing yourself goes against all of your human instincts, that's why.
 
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Nymph

Nymph

he/him
Jul 15, 2020
2,564
Survival instinct
 
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L I F E T O L O S E

L I F E T O L O S E

only you can stop the evil
Sep 18, 2020
465
fear to die.
u probably haven't died inside yet
 
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Wraith

Wraith

Lost in The Void
Nov 4, 2020
180
Perhaps it's the fear of the unknown or even of failure, but survival instinct is undoubtedly a factor. Humans have mental SI along with physical SI, and hope is among the strongest of mental SI. I think many of us fight with hope.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,024
This is because of your survival instinct, like @WornOutLife said. In addition to this, I believe you may have things that you feel like you have to do or want to do before you CTB, which may be an extension of the SI but not necessarily.
 
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