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LostandTired

LostandTired

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Jul 24, 2020
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So this post is unintended. I was suppose post a personal status update which I did and then self-ban account. Unfortunately I've forgotten my password. So in order to join the Crossed Out Name Club had to deviate from original plan and create this goodbye thread so a mod can ban me.

So...So long? Farewell?

I do find myself not anxious, impatient really more than anything. I did LOL when password escaped me. A final F*U from fate I guess. Also earlier finding myself washing the cups I will be mixing the SN in got a chuckle too...

Well I guess I can hopefully be of some use to the community. Going full guide, never sampled SN although did blood test as no access to test kit. Based on work of others, I take no credit other than my own research in medical/drug guides. My SN regimen as follows:

Tminus 12hrs: food fast (not for most but I've been caloric deficient for months so use to it, 4-8 hrs should suffice for you)

Tminus 8hrs: 1x10mg meto
(1 of 6 recommended AE)
Tminus 3hrs: last med glass if water+last cigarette for rest of my life...I quit.
Tminus 2hrs: water fast
Tminus 1:15: 600mg acetaminophen
(standard dose for pain and increases propanolol efficacy)
Tminus 1:15: 3x10mg meto
Tminus 1hr: 200mg propanolol +
400mg cimetidine
(This 1st dose of Prop for tachycardia, 60-90mins needed for absorption. Cime is acid regulator, also 60mins for effectiveness)

Tminus 15mins: factory reset phone and leave note.

Tminus Zero: 1x25g SN in 50ml water + 200mg propanolol. 1x20g SN(backup)
(2nd dose of Prop potentiates SN when taken mixed with SN)

Tplus 1min: put in headphones and lie down.

Tplus 4hrs give or take, see long lost friends....

Hopefully everything looks right and makes sense, phone typing hard. Also since this is my first and last post here be kind.
 
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TAW122

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I hope you have a peaceful journey into the unknown. :hug:

As with all goodbye threads, yes, a mod would disable your account after it is confirmed that you are gone (e.g. like if you planned to depart on mm/dd/yyyy at hh:mm date time, and that has passed and you haven't logged in since then, it would be presumed that you have succeeded.). Of course, if you do change your mind later or failed and want to return, then you would submit a ticket as an appeal to get back on the forum.
 
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Smudgedlines

I like wine.
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Love the bit about quitting smoking... love a dark sense of humour. We are here.
 
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Soul

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Apr 12, 2019
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@LostandTired, I hope everything goes the way that's best for you x
 
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LostandTired

LostandTired

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Jul 24, 2020
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I hope you have a peaceful journey into the unknown. :hug:

As with all goodbye threads, yes, a mod would disable your account after it is confirmed that you are gone (e.g. like if you planned to depart on mm/dd/yyyy at hh:mm date time, and that has passed and you haven't logged in since then, it would be presumed that you have succeeded.). Of course, if you do change your mind later or failed and want to return, then you would submit a ticket as an appeal to get back on the forum.
Thanks for confirmation. I just past Tminus: 3hrs.
 
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Wisdom3_1-9

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Jul 19, 2020
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Here's hoping on your journey to peace you encounter the answer to life, the universe, and everything.
 
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Ulisses

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Feb 21, 2020
487
Glad you stopped smoking lol. may your journey be smooth
 
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LostandTired

LostandTired

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Jul 24, 2020
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Protip: get some sleep night before of. Or at least a nap midday.

I barely caught myself from dozing off after long day yesterday.

Anyways Tminus Zero is 20 Mins later... Oops
 
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Ghost2211

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Jan 20, 2020
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Have a blissful and safe journey.
 
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rt1989526

Paragon
Aug 2, 2020
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Peace and love my friend. I hope it's quick
 
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miguel6565

Arcanist
Apr 5, 2020
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Have a peacefull transition :heart:
 
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Huntfish34

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I hope you find the peace which you seek,. Nothing but Love. ❤️
 
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mahakaliSS_MahaDurga

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Apr 2, 2020
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Safe travels. :hug:
 
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LostandTired

Member
Jul 24, 2020
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SN mixture with Prop is cloudier than SN only backup. I guess as expected. Took more than 10 mins constant stirring to say 90% dissolve 10x20mg Prop tablets. I'm going to keep stirring till the end. Yeah stirring not getting 109% dissolution. Someone let JumperGeo know, 200mg Prop might be better swallowed as tablets but I'm no expert.

Just did my 25g. As expected its gross seawater. I can see how some may not like but hey consider your alternative vs 3secs of swallowing seawater.
Plus 4 mins , no urge to vomit. Think I'm gtg. So no more input from user. EoL
 
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BPD Barbie

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Dec 1, 2019
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Good luck on your journey, sending you love :heart:
 
Huntfish34

Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
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Godspeed,. Hope it all goes well for you. ❤️
 
Cherrypea

Cherrypea

I remember when all this will be again
May 3, 2020
414
Wishing you peace xx
 
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MeriDeath

Im on the edge of reality
May 10, 2020
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Im sorry i was too late....R.I.P
 

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