Thankfully the sn arrived. I have a dilemma and will be very grateful for an advice

[nana2000]

Thankfully I got a message that despite being told that the sn is stuck in customs it arrived to the destination. Thanks god.
I just have a dilemma and I'm thinking if I should continue living.
Reasons to live:1) I have a lot of financial and emotional help with my studies and there are nice people in the group (although some girls boycotting me)

Reasons to die:
1) I don't have a family except my dear supportive mother
2) my sister and other family members are not in touch with me due to my mental disorder
3) I have problems with my medications. They don't work well and I need a rehabilitation of several years to recover
4) I have schizophrenia (although some doctors think it's something else because I never been fully psychotic) I think it's schizophrenia simplex (only with the negative symptoms)
5) when my mother dies I will be left alone with my disease and with no help from government/friends that I don't have and family that I dont have
6) some girls in my group attacking me and bullying me for asking too many questions during classes.

Guess I should die. I will appreciate very much your opinion.

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that it's a personal decision whether to leave this world or not. Nobody else can really say what you should do as they are not living your life, only you know what's best. But at least having the SN means that you have the option of a way out of this life so you won't feel so trapped here, it must be a relief just having that option.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I will have to assume here, but I suppose another reason to live is that you have support from a loving, supporting mother. That's a good thing. Is she near passing-away?

It seems your medications can be worked out, possibly, and maybe it won't take years to get them right, as you believe.

Not knowing where you are from, I can't comment on whether you can get any help from the government for your disease. Is that for certain?

In the end, it's really about what's right for you, whether you still have enough hope to go on, and see if you can do things to make things better. It's a tough question that no one contemplating suicide should take lightly. You owe it to yourself to think things through carefully and make the best decision for yourself that you can. Hope for something better can keep you going. It's usually when hope dies that people lose their desire to go on and seek ways to leave this place. It's possible you're not at that place, maybe never will be, and there's nothing wrong with that. It's all about you and what you see for yourself going forward, problems and all, and if there are workarounds for the potential problems you feel may come into your life in the future, and if you're willing to work to find them. Good luck.

 

[nana2000]

Right now I feel I want to die. I don't know even why. Hopefully I will able to take the package without mom noticing me

 

[hi123456789]

Thankfully I got a message that despite being told that the sn is stuck in customs it arrived to the destination. Thanks god.
I just have a dilemma and I'm thinking if I should continue living.
Reasons to live:1) I have a lot of financial and emotional help with my studies and there are nice people in the group (although some girls boycotting me)

Reasons to die:
1) I don't have a family except my dear supportive mother
2) my sister and other family members are not in touch with me due to my mental disorder
3) I have problems with my medications. They don't work well and I need a rehabilitation of several years to recover
4) I have schizophrenia (although some doctors think it's something else because I never been fully psychotic) I think it's schizophrenia simplex (only with the negative symptoms)
5) when my mother dies I will be left alone with my disease and with no help from government/friends that I don't have and family that I dont have
6) some girls in my group attacking me and bullying me for asking too many questions during classes.

Guess I should die. I will appreciate very much your opinion.

Which country did you order to?