Discussion Thankful for not being the only one...

[Bulletwbttrflywings]

Feeling like I was all alone in my fucked up-ness but yet here... I'm not.

You all are beautiful tortured souls with amazing perspectives and gentle hearts. I adore this forum and the people I've met. Behind each avatar and username holds the heart of someone who has been dealt a shitty hand and is willing to fess up to how messed up humanity can be.

You... you are fucking brave.

You.. you are fucking amazing.

You... you are fucking appreciated.

If no one told you that today, I'm glad to be the one.

I'm sad to see people go, but I'm happy to encourage peace in whatever sits right in your soul.

Much love and peace to my fellow SS friends. Know you are fucking appreciated by this gal.

Hugs!!

 

[SinisterKid]

Ditto

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Feeling like I was all alone in my fucked up-ness but yet here... I'm not.

You all are beautiful tortured souls with amazing perspectives and gentle hearts. I adore this forum and the people I've met. Behind each avatar and username holds the heart of someone who has been dealt a shitty hand and is willing to fess up to how messed up humanity can be.

You... you are fucking brave.

You.. you are fucking amazing.

You... you are fucking appreciated.

If no one told you that today, I'm glad to be the one.

I'm sad to see people go, but I'm happy to encourage peace in whatever sits right in your soul.

Much love and peace to my fellow SS friends. Know you are fucking appreciated by this gal.

Hugs!!

Thank You
I love your Smashing Pumpkins name … if I haven't said it before. I definitely feel like a rat in a cage.

 

[HGL91]

Thank You
I love your Smashing Pumpkins name … if I haven't said it before. I definitely feel like a rat in a cage.

Same! I'm a 90s gal who loved listening to SP as an angsty, SoCal pre-teen!

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Same! I'm a 90s gal who loved listening to SP as an angsty, SoCal pre-teen!

I love 90's music. Probably my favorite decade of music. Even though I listen to mostly Hard Rock & Metal (Todays stuff) the 90's had a lot of great music.
I haven't listened to Smashing Pumpkins in a while. Other than the Rock channels on cable … sometimes their songs will be played.

 

[sunny.sativa]

You're such a flower. I love you, thank you for this. It was actually nice to read. I don't take many things to heart, kind or not, but I felt like you truly felt what you were typing, here.

So glad you're here. I hope your day was nice. Drink water, by the way. It's important.

 

[Dawn0071111]

I feel the same. Its nice to have a place.

 

[Bulletwbttrflywings]

Thank You
I love your Smashing Pumpkins name … if I haven't said it before. I definitely feel like a rat in a cage.

I remember.

You're such a flower. I love you, thank you for this. It was actually nice to read. I don't take many things to heart, kind or not, but I felt like you truly felt what you were typing, here.

So glad you're here. I hope your day was nice. Drink water, by the way. It's important.

Love ya back @sunny.sativa

 

[Conflicted Cat]

Thank you. I'm so glad I found this place. Before I found SS, I had no one to relate to in any way shape or form. Now that's changed. People come and go, some stick around. I don't plan on going anywhere anytime soon. My minds full of conflicts, and I don't know what the hell I really want. But being here makes me feel less alone, there are so many good people here, fucking hell they don't deserve what they are dealing with right now.

 

[Ruffian]

Yas! I couldn't believe the information here alone, never mind the people. I kind of stick to myself, but made a couple of friends, I like that you won't kicked off if you're not 100% ready, but you want the information in your back pocket like an insurance policy. Plus a Plan A, B, and C are also a good idea - you never know where you will end up in life - sometimes you get dealt a shitty hand, and despite the positive thinking nonsense, "God doesn't give you more than you can handle," my belief in God is dubious at best, and sometimes, I don't know who the fuck these people are referring to. Mental illness is bad enough, but I also have a recurring pain condition that comes and goes, and the day it stays, I am out. I forget I have it sometimes, and then something aggravates it. Believe me, there's been times I've felt completing insane thinking it might last my entire life. Plus the constant mood swings just get on my damn nerves. And I do really like your Avatar and screen name. Used to love SP. Tonight, tonight video is based on one of the first, obscure French films, "A Trip to the Moon." Beyond awesome.

 

[262653]

Aww, I hoped this post would sound like "I'm glad I'm not alone in my shit", with no considerations for someone's feelings.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Thank you. I'm so glad I found this place. Before I found SS, I had no one to relate to in any way shape or form. Now that's changed. People come and go, some stick around. I don't plan on going anywhere anytime soon. My minds full of conflicts, and I don't know what the hell I really want. But being here makes me feel less alone, there are so many good people here, fucking hell they don't deserve what they are dealing with right now.

This is the only place we can talk without the threat of being locked up. You can't really talk to friends or family about wanting to die and expect them to understand.
They may think they are "helping" by turning us in.
I understand the conflict as well. For me it's about hurting friends and family. I won't miss this planet …. so fucked up.

 

[Conflicted Cat]

I understand the conflict as well. For me it's about hurting friends and family. I won't miss this planet …. so fucked up.

For me, that, the afterlife and it's existence/non existence, which is mainly why I'm not actively suicidal anymore, after thinking about it long and very very hard... On big decisions I need to make soon which will determine my new life schedule which will probably destroy me mentally even moreso than now, and another... More personal thing that's been on my mind for years, despite here being very understanding, I don't feel I can talk about.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

For me, that, the afterlife and it's existence/non existence, which is mainly why I'm not actively suicidal anymore, after thinking about it long and very very hard... On big decisions I need to make soon which will determine my new life schedule which will probably destroy me mentally even moreso than now, and another... More personal thing that's been on my mind for years, despite here being very understanding, I don't feel I can talk about.

I think about the afterlife as well. I was raised in a religious family. I'm not really religious anymore. I still pray for family & friends. I also pray to die.
I'm not afraid of not existing ... I just don't know what comes next. Even if I lived my entire life, I still don't know what there would be for me.
I used to think I was a good person ... I now know I am not. Not because I want to die. I'm just not a good person. Not evil though. (I hope not)
It's ok you don't have to share everything on here. I don't.

 

[Conflicted Cat]

I'm not afraid of not existing...

Yeah, that seems to be what most feel here, though I am the opposite. I can't possibly imagine every little thing about me including my consciousness and memories... Just... Disappearing. Surely it has to go somewhere right??? But we don't know that, and we never will until death is upon is. So I'm just neutral on it. If I only could know. Maybe one day I'll be brave and just do it anyway, when I have nothing to lose. I don't know.