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scary

find your own way to the Knife
May 1, 2024
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Could be anything related to your account: username, bio, signature, profile picture, etc... why did you choose them? do they hold any significance to you or have any sort of meaning? Feel free to say as much as you like about your interests or whatever, I'd love to hear it

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apearl

apearl

mitski fan
Sep 25, 2023
226
My username comes from a mitski song I love (it got me through really tough times) It's kinda funny cause I never thought about the consequences of this username, but because of it, people have called me "pearl" before, which always gives me whiplash. Cause when I think of pearl I think of the spongebob character. LOL
 
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Fadenself00_

Experienced
Sep 21, 2025
258
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TokaNoOwari

TokaNoOwari

dreams, memories, the sacred— all beyond our grasp
Apr 23, 2026
36
Ooh! That is an interesting thread idea!

My username, Tōka no Owari / 蕩化の終わり, means 'The end of being washed away.' In Japanese, Tōka refers to a state of dissolving or melting away until something loses its shape entirely. For me, it was supposed to represent the conclusion of my personality being erased.

My status, 'dreams, memories, the sacred— all beyond our grasp.' It breaks down to: Dreams are my future, memories are my past, the sacred is my soul, and they are all out of my control.

My pic, cause she cute, and I like the anime :D
 
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insectontrial

insectontrial

Student
Jan 29, 2026
131
My username is a reference to two works written by Franz Kafka (insect =
Metamorphosis, on trial = the Trial). My profile picture shows Concorde's final flight before it was grounded, over the Clifton Suspension Bridge in Bristol, known for (amongst many other things) being a suicide hotspot. Two of my special interests are Concorde (well, aviation in general, but especially Concorde) and bridges.
 
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buriedinmyhead

buriedinmyhead

If pain can purify the heart, mine will be pure
Mar 24, 2026
108
Username is because I'm constantly thinking.

Pfp is the Nazca Lines, I had a photo downloaded because I was writing a little about them for an assignment and they look pretty.

Bio: I was scrolling through random works on AO3 and I think that phrase was in the summary of a work? Idk what it was about or what fandom, the phrase just stuck with me. It makes a lot of sense to me, because I know that even if I find love (which I desperately want) it won't be enough to stop the thoughts I have about killing myself.

Custom Title: Line from Mary Shelley's Mathilda, a story that I am absolutely obsessed with.
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,314
Mines is the definition on whatever you wish also foxes cuz i love them.

Their the cutest things but I do have a bio on myself and ig thats it.
 
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dizzy.

dizzy.

౿ ۫ ࣪ ׅ "Leave it to Piyoko-pyo!"
Aug 11, 2023
56
I love Di-Gi Charat...so much......😽

Also I've explained this in another thread but my username/nickname was chosen during a real bad like...episode of brain fog, anemia, dissociation...which my therapist suggests may be POTs - but yeah, I'm dizzy. ^^;
 
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Lamentice

Lamentice

Schizoid
Mar 27, 2023
171
"Lament" combined with a nickname I was given as a kid. I live with a lot of grief and use art as therapy, lament seems fitting.
 
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violetforever

Elementalist
Dec 24, 2025
897
username: this song/movie. firstly i just really admire jane birkin/charlotte gainsbourg and their music. then i admit i disturbingly romanticize and feel drawn to the plot for my own trauma.
i also just like the name violet and a lot of characters named violet. i didnt even realize this until a while after i made my account but the term shrinking violet is an unintentional reason why i would also choose the name violet too lol.

profile picture: sally draper from mad men. i relate to her a lot and its my favorite show.

signature: i didnt change the wording, just the color because i wish we could customize our usernames like that too. i put light pink because its one of my favorite colors.
 
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Bitterly_Nostalgic

to me, my x-men
Apr 8, 2026
52
My username is something I kind of randomly came up with. I guess it came about because I can't feel nostalgic or reminiscence about things without also having a hint of anger and pain to go with it.

My icon, signature and everything else is because I love the X-Men, with the animated series and '97 being my favorite portrayal of them. I decided that if I'm going to be on a suicide forum, I'll allow myself to have a little fun by dressing my profile up with one of my favorite shows.
 
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ben_

ben_

i ben therefore i am
Oct 31, 2023
107
@scary but what about you? What's in your pfp and banner?

Mine is fairly boring. It's Ben from Blue Velvet. I love David Lynch's movies so that's why :)
 
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scary

find your own way to the Knife
May 1, 2024
192
My username comes from a mitski song I love (it got me through really tough times) It's kinda funny cause I never thought about the consequences of this username, but because of it, people have called me "pearl" before, which always gives me whiplash. Cause when I think of pearl I think of the spongebob character. LOL
lol. Pearls are very beautiful and weird, honestly I didn't even think of her until you mentioned it
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Ooh! That is an interesting thread idea!
My username, Tōka no Owari / 蕩化の終わり, means 'The end of being washed away.' In Japanese, Tōka refers to a state of dissolving or melting away until something loses its shape entirely. For me, it was supposed to represent the conclusion of my personality being erased.
My status, 'dreams, memories, the sacred— all beyond our grasp.' It breaks down to: Dreams are my future, memories are my past, the sacred is my soul, and they are all out of my control.
My pic, cause she cute, and I like the anime :D
That's a beautiful meaning, I saw that character before but I never watched the anime, Wonder Egg Priority? she's cute, her design reminds me of Coraline
Mines is the definition on whatever you wish also foxes cuz i love them.
Their the cutest things but I do have a bio on myself and ig thats it.
I love foxes, they were my favorite animal around when I was in middle school.
Baby Fox GIF

username: this song/movie. firstly i just really admire jane birkin/charlotte gainsbourg and their music. then i admit i disturbingly romanticize and feel drawn to the plot for my own trauma. i also just like the name violet and a lot of characters named violet. i didnt even realize this until a while after i made my account but the term shrinking violet is an unintentional reason why i would also choose the name violet too lol.
profile picture: sally draper from mad men. i relate to her a lot and its my favorite show.
signature: i didnt change the wording, just the color because i wish we could customize our usernames like that too. i put light pink because its one of my favorite colors.
That's a beautiful song, thank you for sharing. I like the color pink too, made my user green cause that's my favorite color
@scary but what about you? What's in your pfp and banner?
Mine is fairly boring. It's Ben from Blue Velvet. I love David Lynch's movies so that's why :)
Ah that's not boring. I'm glad you have something you enjoy

My entire account as of right now is based off of things from the band Bryan Scary & The Shredding Tears because I love their work. My pfp, banner, and gif are of the band and the line above the gif is a quote from Bryan's bandcamp. The line under my pfp is a reference to the final line in one of their songs and a lyric I think holds a lot of meaning to me.
The apples in my banner were added because of another user lol. Niche Fruit
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,457
I feel as if I were buried a long time ago,
I am trapped in eternal cold and darkness
 
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skybox

Have you ever been jealous of birds?
Mar 6, 2024
125
Always love these threads

Username
The unreachable skies in every video game, think Spyro for PlayStation 1. I also love the sky and want it to be the last thing I see before I die

Avatar
Tetsuo from the movie version of Akira, as he hallucinates after being experimented on. This is right before hell breaks loose for him. He's one of my fav characters of all time

Quote
From the anime Kino no Tabi. Kino looks up at the sky and says this as a bird flies by. Tying back in with my username and obsession to be part of the sky
 
dizzy.

dizzy.

౿ ۫ ࣪ ׅ "Leave it to Piyoko-pyo!"
Aug 11, 2023
56
I love Di-Gi Charat...so much......😽

Also I've explained this in another thread but my username/nickname was chosen during a real bad like...episode of brain fog, anemia, dissociation...which my therapist suggests may be POTs - but yeah, I'm dizzy. ^^;
I've since then changed my layout - but it's still slightly di-gi chart related \(^o^)/
 
Yuja

Yuja

Student
May 6, 2026
27
I go by another username on other social media so I only use Yuja on here. There's this snack I love which is Yakgwa (soft sort of cookie) and there's a yuja flavored yakgwa which I binge ate the past winter vacation so that's about it lol.

Photo I took myself last year during spring and I liked it.
 
dhk96

dhk96

Experienced
May 8, 2018
219
Ooh! That is an interesting thread idea!

My username, Tōka no Owari / 蕩化の終わり, means 'The end of being washed away.' In Japanese, Tōka refers to a state of dissolving or melting away until something loses its shape entirely. For me, it was supposed to represent the conclusion of my personality being erased.

My status, 'dreams, memories, the sacred— all beyond our grasp.' It breaks down to: Dreams are my future, memories are my past, the sacred is my soul, and they are all out of my control.

My pic, cause she cute, and I like the anime :D

I really wanted to like Wonder Egg Priority but

I shipped Ai with Rika so the minute Ai realized her feelings towards the homeroom teacher were romantic, I went "nope 😭" and bolted. Lovely art though.
 

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