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anyoneshorizon

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Jun 8, 2022
96
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KyussEatsTheSun

KyussEatsTheSun

Member
Jul 14, 2021
12
Age: 31
Occupation: Quality Control Inspector
Favorite games: Dark Souls, Bioshock, Spyro the Dragon
Favorite show/movies: Jurassic Park, Yu Yu Hakusho, Adventure Time, stuff with Jeff Goldbluhm basically
Currently watching: SpyXFamily, Bee and Puppycat
Favorite sports: Not my thing
Hobbies: Yoga, Songwriting (guitar and vocals)
Dream life: A motorhome life by a beach.
Reason for ctb: Treatment-resistant Major-Depressive Disorder, Social Anxiety, Fear of not knowing, believing my life won't get better despite trying to recover, lots of freaking reasons...
Method: SN
 
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akirat9

エクトリアン
Sep 23, 2022
386
Age: 27
Occupation: Disabled
Favorite games: ファイナルキズメットー, クロノ・トリガー, ファイナルファンタジー, サイレントヒル, ソウルキャリバー,
Favorite show/movies: サイレントヒル
Hobbies: イベントプログラマー/プランナー ファイナルキズメットー
Dream life: Releasing ファイナルキズメットー and ファイナルキズメットーアドベントクライシス
Reason for ctb:
Disabled cannot pay dev team to finish ファイナルキズメットー in various sections;
Method: Sodium Nitrite, no antiemetics
 
chronicrexie

chronicrexie

Member
May 19, 2022
20
Age: 19
Occupation: Student
Favorite games: The Sims 4, Minecraft
Favorite show/movies: Moonrise Kingdom, Stranger Things, any documentaries!
Currently watching: Violet Evergarden
Favorite sports: Dance! Although I dont do any myself.
Hobbies: Art, collecting vintage and antique toys.
Dream life: Rich, healthy, have a girlfriend and friends who love me, go to medical school.
Reason for ctb: Loneliness and exhaustion. Had anorexia since I was 12, has only gotten worse. Autistic, ADHD, OCD, anxiety, MDD, Tourettes... No friends, no life, everyones given up on me.
Method: SN preferably, or inert gas if I could. N would be best if it was easily obtainable.
 
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Dead Ghost

Dead Ghost

Mestre del Temps
May 6, 2022
1,338
  • Age: 44
  • Occupation: I have not
  • Favorite games: LooM, Monkey Island, Day of Tentacle, Paper Mario (Game Cube), Super Mario World, Mario 64, Baten Kaitos, Forsaken, OutRun, Last Story..
  • Favorite show/movies: Mary Poppins, Tron Legacy, Ratatouille, Marvel series and Films, Star Wars series and films, Scott Pilgrim, Guy Ritchie Gangster films.
  • Currently watching: War Of The Worlds - Season 3
  • Favorite sports: I have not
  • Hobbies: Drawing, video games, walking and thinking (but I haven't been able to for years)
  • Dream life: Stand up for myself // Valdre'm per mi mateix -ser autosuficient-
  • Reason for ctb: Exhausted
  • Method: None
 
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GrumpyFrog

GrumpyFrog

Exhausted
Aug 23, 2020
1,913
Age: 30
Occupation: Project Manager, part-time teacher
Favorite games: Heroes of Might and Magic series, Frostpunk, Disco Elysium
Favorite show/movies: Matrix trilogy (I refuse to acknowledge that 4th movie happened), V for Vendetta, most Nolan and Ritchie movies, Breaking Bad, House M.D.
Currently watching: kinda watching the House of Cards, but it's going at the "episode per month" rate
Favorite sports: nope
Hobbies: I have to admit I don't really have one
Dream life: Move out of country to a nice peaceful place, have a stable income without working myself to death, find someone I belong with
Reason for ctb: short reason: war
Long reason: was already barely making it through with multiple chronic illnesses, no support system, no loved ones, barely making ends meet working two jobs, then a war starts and crushes my last dregs of hope and faith in humanity.
Method: probably settling on SN as primary and full suspension hanging as a backup, but still researching my options
 
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WhatDoesTheFoxSay?

WhatDoesTheFoxSay?

Hold your head high, and your middle finger higher
Dec 25, 2020
1,113
Age: 25<x<30
Occupation: Part-time (F&B); student
Favourite games: Death's Gambit, Graveyard Keeper, Stardew Valley, Blasphemous, Cave Story, Fate/Grand Order, Castlevania series, Boktai (ボクタイ) series
Favourite show/movies: Prisoners (2013), Der Untergang (2004), Castlevania (Netflix, 2017)
Currently watching: Random YouTube videos
Favourite sports: Not my cup of tea, but I used to enjoy swimming lessons
Hobbies: Don't have any
Dream life: Life without chronic illness, in a community that encourages emotional expression, and does not punish and incentivise people to hide their mistakes
Reason to ctb: Hefty, unsustainable medical bills; current and possible future complications of lupus nephritis including kidney failure requiring dialysis or renal transplantation; apathy and anhedonia
Methods: Rather not say
 
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dtjb

The Obsolete
Apr 27, 2022
63
Age: 30s
Occupation: Data Analyst
Favorite games: Red Dead Redemption (1, not 2), Fallout 4, KH1, GTA: SA, Left 4 Dead, Animal Crossing (GCN)
Favorite show/movies: American Dad, The Wire, Breaking Bad, Twilight Zone (original, not new), The Office (US) for shows; Whiplash, Requiem for a Dream for movies
Currently watching: House of the Dragon, WestWorld, random Korean shows on Netflix
Favorite sports: Basketball >>>>>>>>
Hobbies: Being anxious, being depressed, sleeping
Dream life: None
Reason for ctb: I'm tired of being alive
Method: Figuring it out
 
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[HNO]

Experienced
Aug 21, 2022
283
Age: facing twenties
Occupation: unemployable
Favorite games: -
Favorite show/movies: -
Currently watching: -
Favorite sports: -
Hobbies: wasting time on this site
Dream life: being never been born
Reason for ctb: failed in genetical and social lottery
Method: gases and injectable substances
 
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novem

novem

Experienced
May 9, 2022
273
Occupation: lost
Favorite games: none
Favorite show/movies: It's Only the End of the World (2016)
Currently watching: french movies
Favorite sports: really?
Hobbies: recalling the past
Dream life: heaven
Reason for ctb: injury
Method: undecided
 
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stillthinkingabtit

Member
Oct 18, 2022
8
Age: 32
Occupation: none atm
Favorite games: -
Favorite show/movies: the office (US), parks and rec, new girl, friends (lol)
Currently watching: -
Favorite sports: swimming and biking
Hobbies: -
Dream life: never having to worry about money, living somewhere beautiful and sunny with ppl and dogs I love
Reason for ctb: treatment resistance, bpd traits, been depressed my whole life
Method: still don't know, I'm a coward, still thinking about it
 
Brew

Brew

Professional Jaywalker
Nov 8, 2021
80
Age: 21
Occupation: storage goblin Storage assistant (wagie)
Favorite Games: Cave Story, Sonic The Hedgehog (series), IMSCARED, Crash Bandicoot (series), Terraria, DDLC
Favorite Shows/Movies: Panty & Stocking w/ Garterbelt, Pucca, Looney Tunes, Treasure Planet, One Piece
Currently watching: N/A
Favorite sports: Running, Cycling, Sparring, Guttural Screaming, Pizza
Hobbies: Reading, Writing, Being a prick
Dream life: Anonymous Robin Hood-type guy helping people out in the street getting jobs and education; minister of education; reform the voice acting translation industry
Reason to CTB: Being too much of an exception in the shittiest possible world with the dumbest people
Method: SN probably; putting my head next to the edge of the train platform
 
WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,407
Age: (optional): 30s
Occupation: NEET (I live off SSI)
Favorite games: Yugioh (Pre-depression)
Favorite show/movies: Law and order, I guess.
Currently watching: A Pokemon Lets play on YouTube
Favorite sports: I don't like sports
Hobbies: Used to be Yugioh before my depression festered, now I don't do anything
Dream life: Being an attractive cis woman. Absolutely ideally I would be a kpop idol, or a gamer girl
Reason for ctb: I am AMAB and very dysphoric
Method: SN. if that fails, I'll do drowning or train decapitation
 
Ultracheese

Ultracheese

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2022
488
Age:18
Occupation:Student
Favorite games:Not my thing
Favorite shows/movies: 8 1/2, Rashomon, Last Year at Marienbad
Currently watching:The Automat
Favorite sports:Baseball
Hobbies:Writing, learning instruments and languages, the humanities in general
Dream life:Being a writer of some kind;novels, plays, biographies of other writers. Possibly teaching at some university. Being married and AMAB.
Reason for ctb:The loss of the best friend I could ever have, the realization that someone I love deeply will never feel the same, feeling like a burden to my family due to my mental health along with chronic illness and gender dysphoria
Method:Unsure yet, most likely either SN or jumping
 
makethepainstop

makethepainstop

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Sep 16, 2022
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No thanks, I never give anyone enough data to compromise, myself. "Trust no one!" The X-FILES!
 
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Exact Change

Exact Change

A life of mistakes
Nov 6, 2022
167
Age: Old
Occupation: semi retired
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Favorite show/movies: Ichiru, Derek, On Borrowed Time (1939)
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Favorite sports: combat sports
Hobbies: ⛳ 🏋 🍸 cooking
Dream life: a world without selfish and self important assholes.
Reason for ctb: nothing left to do. And ive done enough damage.
Method: SN or N2
 
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Unending

Enlightened
Nov 5, 2022
1,517
Age: 20s
Occupation: n/a
Favorite games: Elden ring, Dark souls, Resident evil 4, Visage,
Favorite show/movies: May (2002)
Currently watching: n/a
Favorite sports: basketball
Hobbies: various mediums of art
Dream life: A life where putting in effort got me places
Reason for ctb: Have tried all mental health treatments except for 2 that I am putting off due to risks
Method: Sn
 
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MentalStefan

MentalStefan

Loser
Jul 3, 2022
265
Age: 22
Occupation: student (IT/software engineering)
Favorite games: Workers & Resources: Soviet Republic, Cities Skylines, OpenTTD, Train Driver, Pekka Kana 2, Undertale, Ib, Night In The Woods, Yume Nikki, Deltarune
Favorite show/movies: Fight Club, Trainspotting, Chernobyl (2019), Joker (2019), Mr Robot, Rick & Morty
Currently watching: Better Call Saul
Favorite sports: motorsport, jogging
Hobbies: programming, retro-computing, music, trains, surrealistic art, psychology, opiates
Dream life: Being a widely respected pro-LGBT smart cute femboy youtuber and/or streamer who helps suicidal people, gets incels on feminist and/or leftist site and promotes science and fighting against social inequalities
Reason for ctb: autism, adhd, addiction, solitude, poverty, depression, PTSD, anxiety, misanthropy
Method: SN with anti-emetics or opiate overdose
 
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SecretDissociation

SecretDissociation

Suicide enthusiast
Sep 11, 2022
90
Age: 18
Occupation: Student w/ a PT job
Favorite games: BOTW
Favorite show/movies: er
Currently watching: um
Favorite sports: Skateboarding, writing, reading
Hobbies: Having routine existential crisis'
Dream life: To just have no worries and do things with actual "no effort"
Reason for ctb: Life has nothing to offer. Nothing will remove the void I have in my heart.
Method: Jumping, probably
 
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hungry_ghost

hungry_ghost

جهاد
Feb 21, 2022
517
Age: 35
Occupation: Retail Clerk
Favorite games: Fallout, Last Of Us, Red Dead Redemption 2
Favorite show/movies: Wentworth, The Matrix
Currently watching: Forever Conscious Research on YT
Favorite sports: Weight lifting
Hobbies: Gaming and reading about mysticism
Dream life: Being a rich recluse who plays with synths all day
Reason for ctb: Ennui, disillusionment
Method: N/A
 
Grav

Grav

Wizard
Jul 26, 2020
660
Age: 54
Occupation: programmer/analyst (level 2 support)
Favorite games: world of warships, Diablo (both just to waste time)
Favorite show/movies:
Currently watching: The Dead Girl in Apartment 03 (another time waste). Crappy post 2000 "horror" movie that isn't.
Favorite sports: airsoft, paintball, weightlifting, like watching college football and foreign teams play soccer.
Hobbies: table top games (miniatures, rpgs), scale models, reading
Dream life: Owning a lot of land to drive a tank around on.
Reason for ctb: just waiting for time to be up, nothing really to the future and won't be in a nursing home so why not go early?
Method: partial suspension