hikikomorizombie
Ouch
- Jan 15, 2024
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I've come back to SaSu bc I've been a hikikomori for nearly 3 years now, & something finally came of it. I think I've pieced together the truth of humanity, & I've corroborated that thought across multiple works spanning multiple times. From Schopenhauer to Albert Camus to Marcus Aurelius to Frantz Fanon to Bhagat Singh to Sartre to Buddhism to Gnosticism, etc.
This truth has freed me from the mental prison that brought me to this site in the first place. Unfortunately I can't enact/try to live with it, bc I was so focused on freeing myself mentally that when I finally did, I looked around to find that I was in the permanent prison of a degenerative physical disability that was missed due to childhood neglect.
Now I'm torn between spreading it while fully knowing that ppl either can't or won't understand it & will go out of their way to misunderstand + misinterpret + misconstrue it, or dying w/it & basically deny & hide the truth & it's existence but preserve it's truthfulness. What would you do, what do you think I should do? Plus, I figured that if there was any chance of finding someone who understands, it'd be on here.
This truth has freed me from the mental prison that brought me to this site in the first place. Unfortunately I can't enact/try to live with it, bc I was so focused on freeing myself mentally that when I finally did, I looked around to find that I was in the permanent prison of a degenerative physical disability that was missed due to childhood neglect.
Now I'm torn between spreading it while fully knowing that ppl either can't or won't understand it & will go out of their way to misunderstand + misinterpret + misconstrue it, or dying w/it & basically deny & hide the truth & it's existence but preserve it's truthfulness. What would you do, what do you think I should do? Plus, I figured that if there was any chance of finding someone who understands, it'd be on here.