Method Taxis Baccata

[MyOwnWorstEnemy]

Well, I've been told it likely won't work but I've reached the point where in going to try because I can't wait anymore, I've crushed 400 seeds up, I've only got ginger root for nausea and a glass of water to wash each spoonful down, I'll be back if I fail
Halfway through, bitterness is starting to get to me
3/4 through, struggling to eat the rest because bitterness
Ok, all eaten, yummy!!

 

[Acopia]

How are you holding up?

This is something I've never heard of and know nothing about, just while I'm googling - what is it? Is it something you have growing wild where you are?

This sounds like it may be impulsive, please don't hurt yourself for hurting yourself's sake. You have many friends on here to help you, ingesting bits of plants may result in horrific diarrhoea & vomiting that may not be worth it. Be careful!

Peace,
-Acopia

 

[MyOwnWorstEnemy]

I've done as much research as I can, I've just run of road. If it works great, of not, shit sucks, but I've got to try, just wish I'd had the balls to do it 30+ years ago could have saved myself some time
Currently watching Major League 2, the worst of the trilogy, apparently 3 is much better, we'll see if I get to see it.
Starting to feel odd, but can't tell if it's just anxiety or effects yet.
If you've ever tasted coffee grounds the taste is about the same I guess
Rather, the bitterness is
Heart rate definitely rising, but again, I'm unsure if it's effects or anxiety

 

[Acopia]

I'm sorry it's come to this, you sound desperate for the end. There is no easy way out, I worry that you may become sick but not achieve your end goal.. If you do start to feel sick then please get help - the last thing you need is long-lasting organ damage
-A

 

[MyOwnWorstEnemy]

Randy Quaid is funny

I'm sorry it's come to this, you sound desperate for the end. There is no easy way out, I worry that you may become sick but not achieve your end goal.. If you do start to feel sick then please get help - the last thing you need is long-lasting organ damage
-A

Aw, thanks, but I've been on the edge of ctb for years, if there is organ damage I can just refuse treatment
Still waiting guess I'll grab a smoke
Still waiting guess I'll grab a smoke. Lots of gas
Well, so far this is a bit boring, maybe those seeds weren't toxic enough, they were definitely labelled right.
Still nothing, might as well start major league 3

 

[MyOwnWorstEnemy]

Unsure if I should have vomited by now, I've not eaten for hours but I did have 2 glasses of wine 2 hours before eating the seeds I'm just going to have another drink now, fuck it

 

[Octavina]

I feel so much pain for you, this seems like a brutal way to go. You aren't experiencing any poison symptoms at all? I hope you aren't suffering much.

 

[MyOwnWorstEnemy]

I feel so much pain for you, this seems like a brutal way to go. You aren't experiencing any poison symptoms at all? I hope you aren't suffering much.

Hi, thanks, I don't think anyway it's happening tbh, I don't really know what to expect, but from everything I have read I expected to be rejecting the toxin or dead by now. I guess I'll just add it to my long list of fails if I wake up in the morning M\H is suffering enough, I've been up and down so much the last few weeks and I guess I hit a peak and had to give it go.

 

[Last chance]

I hope you're doing ok?
Did you weigh the crushed seeds before you took them?

 

[MyOwnWorstEnemy]

I don't have good enough scales and risk of discovery was pressing
But it had to have been at least 4 full dessert spoons worth.
Crushed them up in a pestle and mortar for a good 30 mins until I could no longer see any whole seeds
Well, I'm going to call fail on this, I had hoped but 3hrs later I'm still here. So, thank you everyone who wrote msgs and read my posts. I'll confirm I'm ok in the morning just in case
Thanks all

 

[MyOwnWorstEnemy]

Well, feel asleep in the chair, now 5am, still here, don't feel any the worse for wear. Oh well back to the

 

[nopointofliving]

Are you okay?

Well, feel asleep in the chair, now 5am, still here, don't feel any the worse for wear. Oh well back to the

 

[MyOwnWorstEnemy]

Are you okay?

Yes, it appears I'm ok, thanks for asking. No ill effects as far as I can tell, wasn't even sick.

 

[nopointofliving]

Yes, it appears I'm ok, thanks for asking. No ill effects as far as I can tell, wasn't even sick.

I'm glad you experience no negative effects . We are here for you ❤

 

[MyOwnWorstEnemy]

I'm glad you experience no negative effects . We are here for you ❤

Thank you