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[Lavendermoon]

My one ex is a pedophile who abused my children, the other has murdered before.
I'm being targeted for what THEY have done.
had people to tell me to hang myself. Do I or not?
I can't go out without abuse. I've been beaten and raped in the street, people have broke in. I'm facing prison over calling someone something. And I've stopped taking my levothyroxine to see if that will kill me (it's just made me REALLY ill) and someone said because I'm good looking it's why I was raped when little.
I tried killing myself as a child because of men's words. I was asking for it because I was pretty. I cut all my hair off.
My ex did this too. He beat me up to ruin my looks so no other man would look at me now is with someone else. My children have gone into care after my daughter told me her Dad raped her too. I reported it and they just took them away!!!
When I see them I see the carers have hurt them. I was detained in each court date too and tbh if I don't kill myself my ex is going to find away to get his druggie gang friends to murder me/push me to it anyway. They've already made threats to my family

 

[Delia]

what you're going through is horrible, but the choices that are left are all yours to make. If you decide to stay alive, isn't there any way for you to get as far as possible from your ex?

 

[Lavendermoon]

I'm trying to get a move. He was tracking me on my phone, follows me to contact when I see my children, he knows where my family live, ran my parents over, he got my brother stabbed. He'll never stop!!! He's 'in with the police ' too and two make coppers beat me up and said they could do what they want and change it on report later
I went a year without a phone/internet. Things seemed to be okay then. Thing is if I do disappear how do I know my family are safe
He videoed me getting gang raped and has threatened to show it to my children. It will break their hearts. I saw my own mum get raped and beaten almost to death. I don't speak much with her now, it feels like she is to scared to come forwards and back me up with this. Her ex isn't normal as in he looks at disturbing images, whether he distributes them too I don't know. My ex did, the one who raped my daughter. Apparently I'm a psycho because I lost it with him. I shouldn't have handled things how I did and is still have the kids with me but when your child says her dad's been doing things to her there's a rage like no other. It's my job to protect them!!