cylus46
Member
- Jan 28, 2025
- 53
I been pacing around my house for about an hour now, it started off with me just staring off, and then my thoughts became incoherent then I started saying them out loud then I ate some tacos, threw one out I didn't wanna eat it despite me needing to hit my protien goal to fuel the muscles. Then I went bathroom and did my skin care routine while talking to myself and I don't remember what I said I kind of just muttered words and whatever thought popped into my head. Then I crack my neck by whipping my head to the side quickly idk why I just do it when I'm ENERGIZED or having a meltdown like now. Then I scratched my skin a lot I get very antsy. Now I'm in my room still thinking and yapping. It's fun but it's not really fun I xont feel ok right now. I mean I'm always not feeling ok but now it's not ok. But hey maybe sometime tonight I'll get the split second urge to ctb! That'd be a finally moment. Im sorry I love yall idk what I'm saying have a good night :3
