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neveranyhope
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- Mar 27, 2019
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If this belongs in Offtopic, apologies, let me know if I should delete/move/what have you.
I have an older friend who knows I'm depressed and talks like she thinks I'm suicidal - checking in on me etc. The thing that annoys me about her is that she talks ALL the time about how as soon as her dogs and parents pass, she's going to Switzerland and ending it, she doesn't enjoy life and doesn't want to be around, she just doesn't want to do it to her parents or leave her dogs behind bc her husband hates the dogs.
She's retired and in her 60s, but what she doesn't appreciate about me is that I've not had a life worth living at ALL - why bother sticking around for another 30 years of misery? (She just keeps telling me I can off myself when I get "old enough" — wtf is the point of that?) Like, even her "boring retirement" life is easier than what I've been through. She's freaking out on me too much, offering to send me money, trying to intervene to find me work (which pissed me off, we work in different industries) - when by all appearances, she understands the fundamental feeling behind why I'm suicidal - not worth it anymore.
She's in the government so I also feel like she is going to send people to my house. She's a really "tough" person - was the only woman in her division in the 80s, stuff like that. I wish I could be honest with her about how shitty I Feel because she seems like someone who cares about me but I feel so ashamed by what a loser failure I am.
I don't know what I'm talking about anymore. But do you guys ever get annoyed with how people will talk about suicide in the hypothetical but then immediately lose all sense when it's an actual consideration for someone in their life?
I have an older friend who knows I'm depressed and talks like she thinks I'm suicidal - checking in on me etc. The thing that annoys me about her is that she talks ALL the time about how as soon as her dogs and parents pass, she's going to Switzerland and ending it, she doesn't enjoy life and doesn't want to be around, she just doesn't want to do it to her parents or leave her dogs behind bc her husband hates the dogs.
She's retired and in her 60s, but what she doesn't appreciate about me is that I've not had a life worth living at ALL - why bother sticking around for another 30 years of misery? (She just keeps telling me I can off myself when I get "old enough" — wtf is the point of that?) Like, even her "boring retirement" life is easier than what I've been through. She's freaking out on me too much, offering to send me money, trying to intervene to find me work (which pissed me off, we work in different industries) - when by all appearances, she understands the fundamental feeling behind why I'm suicidal - not worth it anymore.
She's in the government so I also feel like she is going to send people to my house. She's a really "tough" person - was the only woman in her division in the 80s, stuff like that. I wish I could be honest with her about how shitty I Feel because she seems like someone who cares about me but I feel so ashamed by what a loser failure I am.
I don't know what I'm talking about anymore. But do you guys ever get annoyed with how people will talk about suicide in the hypothetical but then immediately lose all sense when it's an actual consideration for someone in their life?