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IronDragon

IronDragon

New Member
May 23, 2025
3
May you rest in peace. Thank you for your service to our community.
 
FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,638
Peace and love to a kind soul. Thank you for sharing your experience with us
 
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dalemar

Arcanist
Nov 20, 2025
454
hello everyone is it currently 8:12 am and i just got done with the drink and the taste was horrendous to say in the least and for reference i am 18 years old 5'11 70kg and i'm also a pretty devout athlete, i took 30grams with the drink at 8am on the dot but had to get the taste out so i ate about 5 ritz crackers, kiwi and i have a green apple jolly rancher in my mouth as i write this the taste is definitely still lingering but not too terrible and i also decided to take 1000mg of ibuprofen instead of the benzos. it is now 8:46am and my head is starting to ache nothing major probably in between a headache and migraine pain wise. It is now 9am and i'm starting to feel a lot more pain nothing major still but nonetheless not very comfortable. im laying down right now and my room is about 60 degrees fahrenheit. 9:30 starting to really feel my muscles aching getting a lot hotter but still just feels like i'm only sick not the level i thought dying would feel like although i can feel my head slowly getting lighter and my vision is starting to slightly fade although have not felt very nauseous even with the fact i ate after the drink havent felt the need to throw up yet. it is now 10:45 the past hour was a blur everythinf is starting to fade i can visibly see my skin darkening slightly and i think this will be the last update before i send still have not thrown up although around the 10-10:15 mark i think the nausea really started hitting i tried getting up for water as well but couldn't stand so had to lay back down again i'm not in a lot of pain right now as i am really not starting to be able to feel much i think i'm going to send now so i can get this info out incase i pass out before i have the chance it's now 10:52 i can feel everything fading but for everyone wondering the pain was a 6-7 at the peak i would scale it with a fever feeling overall not bad at all. i hope this helps someone out there
Thank you OP for the update. I hope you found your peace.
I am so surprised by hog long it took OP to faint.
I wonder if it was because he was an athlete, or because he didn't take any benzos.
 
Unlucky777

Unlucky777

Specialist
Dec 10, 2025
353
Thank you for sharing, I hope you found the peace you were seeking. Rest well 🤗
 

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