taking N in like 10 min

[rikamonie]

so i think things haven't worked out for me im back here after like a month or however long its been i was going to do this a few days ago but i changed my mind the night before but here i am again i just dont have another option so i am probably doing it now

i have fasted all night i didnt take the snack that's recommended because i know im more likely to vomit if iv eaten than not eaten

taken 3 meto an hour before (12pm)
taking N at 1pm ish

im scared ): itll taste like shit and i havnt got any chocolate this time ah

 

[airboy_a380]

U sure about that?

 

[lifeisbutadream]

God be with you, Rikamonie!

 

[Isadeth]

so i think things haven't worked out for me im back here after like a month or however long its been i was going to do this a few days ago but i changed my mind the night before but here i am again i just dont have another option so i am probably doing it now

i have fasted all night i didnt take the snack that's recommended because i know im more likely to vomit if iv eaten than not eaten

taken 3 meto an hour before (12pm)
taking N at 1pm ish

im scared ): itll taste like shit and i havnt got any chocolate this time ah

I'm sorry things haven't worked out for you. I'm glad you have such a peaceful method available though. Are you able to wait until you have something to cut the taste? Chocolate isn't the only option, but I understand if you're just ready. I hope you find the peace you're looking for; whatever you decide. ♡

 

[rikamonie]

I'm sorry things haven't worked out for you. I'm glad you have such a peaceful method available though. Are you able to wait until you have something to cut the taste? Chocolate isn't the only option, but I understand if you're just ready. I hope you find the peace you're looking for; whatever you decide. ♡

thank you :3 i have sound some chocolate syrup so im good
is the mixture meant to be clear? its kind of foggy iv been mixing it for a while does anyone know?

 

[lifeisbutadream]

thank you :3 i have sound some chocolate syrup so im good
is the mixture meant to be clear? its kind of foggy iv been mixing it for a while does anyone know?

I'm not sure. Does it stay cloudy after it settles down after stirring?

 

[rikamonie]

I'm not sure. Does it stay cloudy after it settles down after stirring?

yeah its fully dissolved but just merky instead of clear like i thought it would be maybe im getting it confused with sn

 

[airboy_a380]

Seems like you decided. Hope you find peace on the other side.

 

[rikamonie]

smells like nail varnish remover how lovely
i drank it but it feels like something is in the back of my throat makes me gag

 

[disabledandhopeless]

I wish you peace

 

[rikamonie]

feel hot
very dizzy

 

[lifeisbutadream]

smells like nail varnish remover how lovely
i drank it but it feels like something is in the back of my throat makes me gag

I have tasted the powder. The odor was extremel acrid but it didn't taste as bad as they say. I thought it tasted like crushed aspirin.

 

[rikamonie]

cant see

feel hot
very dizzy

thank hunj wikk pwss ou aoin

 

[lifeisbutadream]

Godspeed, Rika!

 

[Jumper Geo]

So sorry things never worked out it's OK to delay to plan it to perfection but if you've mixed it now I suppose my advice is a bit late. I hope it's fast and painless like N should be, full into a deep sleep and dance with the Angels.

Best wishes

Geo

 

[airboy_a380]

Fly high!

 

[Isadeth]

thank you :3 i have sound some chocolate syrup so im good
is the mixture meant to be clear? its kind of foggy iv been mixing it for a while does anyone know?

You're welcome ♡ did you mix with cold or warm water to reconstitute? I've only seen injectable N, and if cloudy it should be discarded. But obviously you're drinking it. Just make sure you've mixed it enough, dear. I'm glad you have some chocolate syrup on hand! ♡ good luck and I wish you a painless transition. Xx

 

[inactive]

I wish you a safe and gentle sleep.

 

[Cherrypea]

Enjoy your peace x

 

[airboy_a380]

My first time chatting with someone who's about to CTB. I'm happy and sad at the same time. Happy she got peace and sad to see how many of us are suffering so much.

 

[Sinai Silence]

Rest in peace

 

[TAW122]

If you are still here and can read this message, then I wish you peace in whatever you choose to do. If not, then I hope you had a peaceful journey into the unknown.

 

[braketimez]

Didn't know N could be taken orally.

I hope your journey was peaceful

 

[Xiaomi]

I hope you are at peace now. I'll pray for you.

 

[BipolarGuy]

cant see


thank hunj wikk pwss ou aoin

Anyone know what this says?

 

[airboy_a380]

Anyone know what this says?

I reckon it says thank hun will pass out soon

 

[BipolarGuy]

I reckon it says thank hun will pass out soon

Do you think they're gone now...they posted this about 2 and half hours ago.

 

[Isadeth]

Do you think they're gone now...they posted this about 2 and half hours ago.

Yes, it doesn't take long. ♡

 

[BipolarGuy]

Yes, it doesn't take long. ♡

I know that people take their own lives every day but it is an unusual feeling to see their writing as they went through with it.

 

[Isadeth]

I know that people take their own lives every day but it is an unusual feeling to see their writing as they went through with it.

I know exactly what you mean. I've lost a few here that made me quite sad, and it's also sad to see those that post regularly ctb. I personally remind myself that they are no longer in pain and have finally found what they were searching for. ♡ it's difficult, but most here have the same intention. It's just slightly surreal at first knowing that they went first.