taking a 1 month vacation and blowing my life savings and then end my life

[SufferingInDenmark]

i wanna take a one month, no-return trip to my favorite country.
have a lot of fun there.
it might even be 2 months if i should spend it all.
but i won't spend it all.
i would leave some for my funeral things, and also some money for my family.

i just need to find out what method to use when the day finally comes.
there's a lot of snakes there in certain places... i saw a video of a man who got bit by his pet snake on purpose.
after his GF left him.
he didn't seem to be in much pain, he just seemed high from it.
and then died.

and i need to make sure my family finds out pretty fast, so there's no speculation.

 

[devils~advocate]

If I was single, I would do this as well. Very good idea....enjoy a long international vacation, spending money with no cares, etc
Go to all the places that Ive always wanted to visit. Maybe bring an unsuspecting friend to enjoy it all with.

Id advise against snake bite. I thought, maybe according to the species, most snake bites or the aftereffects are quite painful.
My aversion to pain, is the reason I picked my particular method of ctb.

Yes that is a good idea...make sure ones family learns quickly of the outcome. No reason for speculation.

 

[CatLvr]

IIRC that snake was a Black Mamba.

From the Wikipedia article about them, specifically the section entitled "Venom":

The venom is predominantly neurotoxic, and symptoms often become apparent within 10 minutes.[25] Early neurological signs that indicate severe envenomation include a metallic taste, drooping eyelids (ptosis) and gradual symptoms of bulbar palsy.[47] Other neurological symptoms include miosis (constricted pupils), blurred or diminished vision, paresthesia (a tingling sensation on the skin), dysarthria (slurred speech), dysphagia (difficulty swallowing), dyspnea (shortness of breath), difficulty handling saliva, an absent gag reflex, fasciculations (muscle twitches), ataxia (impaired voluntary movement), vertigo, drowsiness and loss of consciousness, and respiratory paralysis.[25] Other more general symptoms include nausea and vomiting, abdominal pain, diarrhea, sweating, salivation, goosebumps and red eyes.[46] The bite of a black mamba can cause collapse in humans within 45 minutes.[48] Without appropriate antivenom treatment, symptoms typically progress to respiratory failure, which leads to cardiovascular collapse and death.[25] This typically occurs in 7 to 15 hours.[43]

 

[Jdieiejdjaow]

It's kind of what I did. Spent 1 year visiting countries then tried to transition but aborted due to SI then spent the rest of time idling in hotels and hostels until I ran out of money with a period of paying rent and visiting my home country to arrange succession after my father committed suicide by refusing to vaccinate against COVID-19. I now have one last chance since I lost my national documents and can't leave to a different country to transition.

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

did you have a method planned?

It's kind of what I did. Spent 1 year visiting countries then tried to transition but aborted due to SI then spent the rest of time idling in hotels and hostels until I ran out of money with a period of paying rent and visiting my home country to arrange succession after my father committed suicide by refusing to vaccinate against COVID-19. I now have one last chance since I lost my national documents and can't leave to a different country to transition.

If I was single, I would do this as well. Very good idea....enjoy a long international vacation, spending money with no cares, etc
Go to all the places that Ive always wanted to visit. Maybe bring an unsuspecting friend to enjoy it all with.

Id advise against snake bite. I thought, maybe according to the species, most snake bites or the aftereffects are quite painful.
My aversion to pain, is the reason I picked my particular method of ctb.

Yes that is a good idea...make sure ones family learns quickly of the outcome. No reason for speculation.

right. the hardest part is just finding out what method to use.
i would end myself with cyanide, but how the fuck do you buy that...

 

[Johnzaga23]

Don't do this, just in case you might actually live. You just never know.

 

[Jdieiejdjaow]

did you have a method planned?

Was the question for me?

 

[galaxid]

It's kind of what I did. Spent 1 year visiting countries then tried to transition but aborted due to SI then spent the rest of time idling in hotels and hostels until I ran out of money with a period of paying rent and visiting my home country to arrange succession after my father committed suicide by refusing to vaccinate against COVID-19. I now have one last chance since I lost my national documents and can't leave to a different country to transition.

This is the scariest part for me. Not even the act of ctb, but the fact that I might not be able to go through with it. Once we're outta money, at least in the US, it doesn't matter our intentions or how hard we try. The history we have of doing our best is meaningless in the face of one monumental failure, missed payment, whatever.

I'm wishing you the best.

 

[devils~advocate]

did you have a method planned?


right. the hardest part is just finding out what method to use.
i would end myself with cyanide, but how the fuck do you buy that...

My method.....Inert Gas w/ N2

Im not sure where one would even get cyanide. It would have to be formulated into a form that can be ingested or inhaled...I have no idea.

So far the main method used (if this forum is any indication) is SN. Which is discussed a lot.

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

y

Was the question for me?

yes

My method.....Inert Gas w/ N2

Im not sure where one would even get cyanide. It would have to be formulated into a form that can be ingested or inhaled...I have no idea.

So far the main method used (if this forum is any indication) is SN. Which is discussed a lot.

i heard about SN, but i never understood fully.
the tutorial seemed complicated. english isn't my first language also

 

[Jdieiejdjaow]

yes

Yes, I had a method planned. I used N2 with parts from escmode (now defunct, thank goodness).