Swept away by the sea

[somuchpain1]

Tonight I will get swept away by the sea

 

[jimmy7754]

I want to get swept up.

 

[somuchpain1]

It sucks so much but idk what else to do

 

[Huntfish34]

That sounds like a difficult / painful way to CTB but I wish you the best in whatever may happen.

 

[somuchpain1]

is it really though? More so than anything else?

 

[CommitSudoku]

Just seems easy to fall to SI, and likely to take a long time since if you know how to swim, it is possible to tread water a long time or float on your back or something. Currents can be very strong through so probably in the right location you can easily be swept under. Never know what sea creatures could intervene too, mostly thinking of jellyfish and sharks. The right jellyfish could help though but make things more painful. In the end all methods have pros and cons. I wish you the best whatever you decide to do, and hope you think everything through.

 

[matt6callis]

I did this. It wasn't pleasant. Was able to swim for hours. Sea wasn't that cold. Being buffeted around by rip tides was no fun. And even starker, it was a frightening and drawn out death. SI kicks in too as you have time to think.
Don't do this. It sucks.

 

[Umbrella Weather]

Tonight I will get swept away by the sea

I've often looked out onto the water and wondered if the chilled caress of the waves tonight might heal the wounds inflicted by a tepidly tumultuous today, yesterday, and tomorrow. You are not alone in the desire to be subsumed by it all, to simply drown in a thirst which refuses to be quenched… Just know that there is someone out there on the globe thinking about you at this moment.

Never know what sea creatures could intervene too, mostly thinking of jellyfish and sharks.

This made me think of 'The Bridge' (a documentary about jumps from the Golden Gate Bridge) in which a survivor recounts his experience of leaping from the bridge only to be 'saved' by a sea lion who grabbed him as he plunged and pulled him to the surface where he was 'rescued' by a patrol boat.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I wish you the best in whatever happens. Drowning does sound like an unpleasant way to go but I understand the feelings of desperation. I wish we lived in a society where our right to die is respected and we could just exit peacefully at a time of our own choosing.

 

[Graytaichi]

If you can swim ,im begging you not to try this method. Very very likely to fail and its not peaceful at all.

 

[june]

Ive heard things similar to above

 

[somuchpain1]

I went out in middle of the night it was freezing cold and dark and scary but I may try again tonight
Maybe I'll add ankle weights too

 

[june]

Have you had attempts with drown? What happened before?

 

[somuchpain1]

no never before never been in this state before but getting chronically worse!

 

[Chiisai]

Tonight I will get swept away by the sea

Wow. I was having ideations of this too. Just floating like being carried by clouds though I have this fear of something unknown lurking underwater in the middle of the deep ocean. If it comes to that, I was thinking of bringing SN with me.

 

[matt6callis]

Wow. I was having ideations of this too. Just floating like being carried by clouds though I have this fear of something unknown lurking underwater in the middle of the deep ocean. If it comes to that, I was thinking of bringing SN with me.

It's not peaceful. It's horrible! I had this illusion myself and it's very far from the truth.
It's cold. It's dark. You can get buffeted around a lot, with water going up your nose. Plus, unless the water is really cold, your body won't succumb and you will be out there for hours and hours.
Just don't.
If you already have SN, just do that.

 

[Someone123]

Tonight I will get swept away by the sea

That is an option I would consider if I had it available to me, but you'd need to go into it knowing it will be a really bad experience, however in the right locations it is very likely to work- you need to know the tides, etc. It's probably worse than you can imagine for a while, but then it's all over. I think if I had it available I would only use this option if my daily pain was really unbearable, since it's going to be a lot more stressful than some other methods; however, in the right location the odds of it working are very high.

 

[Chiisai]

It's not peaceful. It's horrible! I had this illusion myself and it's very far from the truth.
It's cold. It's dark. You can get buffeted around a lot, with water going up your nose. Plus, unless the water is really cold, your body won't succumb and you will be out there for hours and hours.
Just don't.
If you already have SN, just do that.

I have attempted SN before so I know how it feels but I have been feeling recently not wanting to die locked in my room. Was thinking how nice it would be to be able to swim again and die then and there while relishing the feeling of freedom and happiness.

 

[Ashu]

Tonight I will get swept away by the sea

I recently lived on the cliffy coast of northen Spain for rwo and a half months, and often dreamed of doing the same. What is it about the method that attracts you?

 

[Someone123]

I have attempted SN before so I know how it feels but I have been feeling recently not wanting to die locked in my room. Was thinking how nice it would be to be able to swim again and die then and there while relishing the feeling of freedom and happiness.

If it was me I don't think it would be hours and hours, I'm just not a good swimmer or good at floating at all- in the sea, not in a peaceful lake, I would be surprised if I could stay afloat 30 minutes, and I think I might go under in ten minutes or less in a rough sea. It would be a highly stressful way to go though.

 

[Chiisai]

If it was me I don't think it would be hours and hours, I'm just not a good swimmer or good at floating at all- in the sea, not in a peaceful lake, I would be surprised if I could stay afloat 30 minutes, and I think I might go under in ten minutes or less in a rough sea. It would be a highly stressful way to go though.

Haha. Thats funny. I used to lie on my back spread eagled to float like a starfish. I usually go for a swim after riding my bike to the countryside. I sometimes stop by rivers or seaside curbs and have a dip to cool off and wash my riding suit. Damn... missing those days.

 

[somuchpain1]

Why is it so hard?

 

[Someone123]

Why is it so hard?

It is terrifying when you start to go under water and start to breathe a little water in and come back above the water, due to survival instinct you wil struggle as hard as possible to stay above the water because it is so terrifying to go under the water- you will likely scream a lot for help because it is so terrifying and then swllow some water and throw up and struggle, and be like that for minutes that feel like hours before going under for good- that's based on descriptions of near drownings I have heard about- breathing water into your lungs is terrifying. It will be like torture for a while and from screaming someone might rescue you- admittedly it's a terrifying way to go. It is very, very far from peaceful. If it is still worth it to you because your daily pain is so much then it could be a reliable method if no one will be able to rescue you once you start screaming. If you have very, very strong willpower maybe you will be able to keep yourself from screaming, but due to SI (survival instinct) this will be tough.

 

[somuchpain1]

Thank you

 

[whatevs]

I went out in middle of the night it was freezing cold and dark and scary but I may try again tonight
Maybe I'll add ankle weights too

Aren't you scared of the drowning process? At the very least I would research a substance to dull myself before doing that