Discussion Survival instinct or fear/hope?

[Ch92921]

I cant because I am sure that after death there is nothing!
But I am very unhappy with this life! I am very depressiv and I am pretty sure on a long term
my fear of nothingness will go away because my depression is to exhausting.

 

[throwaway123]

Survival instinct is a horrible thing. Oblivion is the goal right? So why do we hesitate or make up excuses or not execute correctly? What are your genuine fear and hopes stopping you?

Mine are what if i could get better (wishful thinking that i need acceptance to circumvent), and what if there is something worse after death and not only oblivion, also I am still grieving my life and in those stages i have not reached acceptance yet.

It's the same for me.
Everytime I come close to CTB I start to panic. The pain becomes unbearable.
Sometimes I think about just letting go of everything and letting the pain do the rest but there is still a shimmer of hope left though I suppose the way things are going now that shimmer of hope will die soon as well. I'm not sure but maybe that's a good thing. I've always felt/known my life was destined to end this way.