Venting Suicide: the only true way out

[Hahem]

Suicide: the only true way out
Since the beggining so much exclusion. I'm tired of pretending I'm in the wrong. I'm tired of pretending it is my fault for not fitting in. Tired of pretending they are fair and I deserved all of this.
The cold dark truth is this: society is sick. People are disturbingly sick and I don't know what to do with these conclusions. Some people may be good but what does good even mean? Everyone is selfish at their hearts. Everyone is by themselves in the end. Love is just an illusion.
Really, I'll tell what's my problem with life: sometimes I look at life and see no way out.
Sometimes I look at suicide and realize it's the only true way out, the only true way out.
But I don't know Jimmy, don't know if my heart will buy it. And I'll have to wait to see.
I hope everyone who is reading this doesn't have to face the amount of rejection I suffered. Best wishes for you all. Let me believe there are some good folks out there.

 

[Depressed2]

Something that i know deeply,secretly and yet don't want to accept it.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I agree, it's society's fault, not ours. Society is sadistic and cruel

 

[We Are Angels]

They are sadistic for wanting to keep us here. They'd make us go through hundreds of years of this crap if they could.

 

[dinosavr]

Truth. No other way to escape from cruelty of the society

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

True, everyone always shows their true colors

 

[aespa]

me personally yes, i agree but my thoughts are you can't fall for a selfish person if you are selfish too. choose who you talk to, be selective

 

[pariah80]

Suicide: the only true way out
Since the beggining so much exclusion. I'm tired of pretending I'm in the wrong. I'm tired of pretending it is my fault for not fitting in. Tired of pretending they are fair and I deserved all of this.
The cold dark truth is this: society is sick. People are disturbingly sick and I don't know what to do with these conclusions. Some people may be good but what does good even mean? Everyone is selfish at their hearts. Everyone is by themselves in the end. Love is just an illusion.
Really, I'll tell what's my problem with life: sometimes I look at life and see no way out.
Sometimes I look at suicide and realize it's the only true way out, the only true way out.
But I don't know Jimmy, don't know if my heart will buy it. And I'll have to wait to see.
I hope everyone who is reading this doesn't have to face the amount of rejection I suffered. Best wishes for you all. Let me believe there are some good folks out there.

This has to be one of the best, most truthful posts on this entire site. I felt all of this in my soul. I'm so tired of feeling like I'm in trouble for something or wrong for being me. I'm not evil. I'm not a bad person. I've made poor decisions in the past. I've told a few lies to fit in, but I'm not a bad person. I grew from doing that and learned from it. Yet, this life somehow wants to gaslight light me through humans and their fucked up behavior. "Well, if everywhere you go, you smell shit, then it's probably YOU!!!" Unless I'm in a sewer.

There's so much truth in this post. Thank you for articulating and putting into words exactly how I feel. I'm so happy to know I'm not alone.