Suicide plan? yay or nay?

[lotus11]

I think we could probably all agree, that we would prefer to go in a 'nice way' a nice setting, as peaceful as possible etc. Me, I want to do it in another country (as I always felt uncomfortable in my own) somewhere beautiful, with good energy..maybe a sunset after a sunny day by the beach. Something like this.

But the problem with this is that it seems like so much effort and money to plan, and as, even if you know you want to do it, killing yourself is still so difficult to do, I feel as though planning to make it 'right'- although I really want to go that way, just makes the whole process drag out rather than getting on with it.

So what is your opinion...do you think it is better to try to go with a nice ending and stick to a plan or just get it over with?

 

[jodes2]

It's worth having a nice death if you can. Personally I put enormous effort into making sure my last moments are good. It's very important to me, even tho I suffer plenty normally, my last days, hours and minutes have a very high priority. I want to CTB at my dad's where I can feel loved and supported until the end. Also, he can handle my death. I don't know if my gf could handle it well. She just won't accept my CTB. I don't want to be plagued with guilt in my final moments. FML. That woman needs to learn to be COMPASSIONATE

 

[Sad_Sack]

I've thought about about traveling to end it. I've concluded it is so hard to know for sure if you can even follow through that you might very well spend all the time and money for nothing. Also if you are so miserable you are ready to end it I doubt that if you backed out you could even really enjoy the trip for just a trip. I have even given up on the idea of walking to a field nearby because the effort is to great for me these days to get there only to have SI stop me. Another thing is that if you do fail you will be in a foreign place and under their mental healthcare which could be pretty awkward depending on language barrier etc.

 

[FuneralCry]

I would personally prefer to just try and go for the most straightforward plan possible. The less complications involved and chances of something going wrong, the better. I just want to be permanently gone from this world, at the end of the day the world we live in makes suicide so stigmatised to the point that there is so much secrecy associated with planning it, so I doubt that many people are able to achieve their perfect suicide. Things really should be different, but unfortunately this is the world that we live in.

 

[Sapphire]

I think that it is important to make your last few days as nice as possible. You deserve it after all.
I don't know about traveling to another country to ctb though. It sounds very nice, but if you change your mind at the last minute, it's going to be a very expensive trip.

I like how you think though. I wanted to spend my last couple of days at the beach too. I made a hotel reservation in a nearby state for a few days. My plan was to spend one last day at the beach, and then ctb the next day. I spent a few hours at the beach, and then I had a nice dinner. The next day I wasn't able to go through with it, because I had too much time to overthink it. I spent the entire day before sitting at the beach and thinking how I would be dead at this time tomorrow and scaring myself.

I've learned that in my case, I can't drag it out and give myself too much time to overthink it, or else I will give time for the fear to set in, and I won't be able to go through with it. I think the only way I will be able to go through with it is if I do it impulsively. It's better to keep everything as simple as possible.

 

[painofzed]

I want to die with my family around me holding my wife's hand, but that will never happen because no one around me will accept my right to choose.

 

[GasMonkey]

The famous SlovakGuy did it in a different country, he was german and CTB'd in a slovak mountain resort.

 

[Meaninglessness]

Our goal is to die and not to fail and therefore a reliable suicide method is better than any other method. Remember that it is hard to kill yourself and with most methods there is also a risk of failure. A successful suicide requires good luck or careful planning, but it should come to a point with each method where no one survives. The only methods that can´t fail are dehydration and starvation.

 

[BipolarExpress]

The only methods that can´t fail are dehydration and starvation.

Unless you obey the call of your stomach and throat and break the fast.