Suicide Pact

[lostforever77]

Sure, it would be nice to die with company.

I guess that would be one thing I would have company for ...just fml

 

[AtomicWaffles]

I would love a suicide pact not gonna lie, I also feel like suicide cuddling would be amazing but maybe that's just me. Cuddle with someone while you both die, very nice.

 

[SeaBreeze]

I'd consider adding my name to some form of enrollment list

 

[Spectre]

It would be awesome to do like whirlwind roadtrip where we spend all our money, go to cool places, purchase Nembutal from Mexico and go out on a wave. But this sounds more like a fantasy then anything that would happen irl. Tbh the other people in the suicide pact would probably decide they like each other more than me and kick me out and some point. That would be more consistent with my life experiences.

 

[tabris_075]

I'm curious what people think of suicide pacts. The idea of dying in a spooky, remote location in solitude has never appealed to me. I am not encouraging a pact, but I am curious if anyone else has ever found an odd source of comfort in the idea of suicide with others in a peaceful location. I feel so demented even asking that, but it's just where my raw and honest headspace has landed this year. Again, I am not suggesting it or encouraging it. I am in a bit of a fragile place right now and just curious as to what goes on in everyone else's headspace and if you can relate.

It would surely be quite something to die with someone. Even if it is someone you just met, the ideia of going along with anyone makes death more or less a peaceful thought, the assuring idea that you're both going to the same place, someone is willing to accompany you on the very end.

 

[Princess_Kitty]

I've had a suicide pact before. It was a 3 way suicide pact between my wife, my best friend and myself. It was very comforting to talk to someone who is going through exact same thing and the loneliness depression wasn't there. We had planned everything out together months ahead and would talk about it daily. In the end my best friend backed out for her kids and my wife and I attempted together. Long story short it was me I guess my SI that backed out at the last second.

I forgot to mention my best friend and I apparently still have that suicide pact in place. She will not break it. So if I die then she will too. It's not the same feeling as it was before though. They aren't suicidal right now.

 

[iusedtobehappy]

I was part of a pact shortly after my husband died. I actually met her. We were in the planning stages. I didn't go through with it because of my kitty. I couldn't do it to him. I lost him so here I am back to it. He saved my life so I owe him mine.

 

[AshersGirl]

I don't trust very easily, and I think that level of vulnerability takes a huge amount of trust.

I'd ideally have died at the moment my fiancé did. Together, embracing, taking that step to whatever comes after, whether something or nothing, simultaneously.

He died. Not suicide. I can't imagine letting anyone close enough again to actually die with them although I'd rather not be alone.

I really just wish for what the majority of us do: as quick and painless as possible, and strength to follow through and overcome SI.

 

[Chelsea Leng]

It's too hard to do everything and plan it right by yourself. It's always goo to have someone to do it together even if the partner backs out, it's better than being alone all the way there. I personally want to find someone who is near me to do charcoal together

 

[mortuarymary]

If you're going, do it alone. What if one survives then gets arrested. Not worth it.

 

[femmedelaville]

I could do either or, but would prefer someone to charcoal with possibly. I've read many cases overseas where cars full of people all CO together

 

[Doombox]

I worry that some people have a romanticized view of a suicide pact, (two kindred spirits dying in each others arms), while the reality could be a whole lot more horrible. People who make arrangements with strangers are really rolling the dice IMO. Imagine making plans with a stranger on this site and them showing up and you find out that they are a psycho and you're their next victim.

Also even if nobody involved is a psycho, we know that SI is a big deal, can kick in viciously at the last minute, and I can imagine the whole scene getting traumatic fast. So many bad possibilities. I can respect the idea of wishing for a companion on the journey but recognize that as the fairy tale it might very well be.

 

[thinvy]

I'm too much of a coward, hence why I'm not on the partners mega thread. I can't even bring myself to find a bed partner for a night, I surely couldn't bring myself to let someone watch me die, nor do I think I could handle watching someone else die.

if I had someone I knew and trusted to pull the trigger on me and then assumedly themselves, perhaps id feel different. I actually don't really care what's done with my corpse (embalming aside, I have very strong feelings about embalming) bc I'll be dead so, yk...

but with my preferred method, I'll be conscious too long. I can't trust someone not to call 911 and tell them to bring the reversal agent with them and keep me here against my will. perhaps it's selfishness, then, that I wouldn't watch someone else kill themselves in front of me, but I think watching them would genuinely break my brain to the point of me no longer being able to function. I barely can keep myself alive with the level of mental trauma I've already been through.

 

[thesadbrazilian]

Damn.
I really wish to go that way.
Just me and a group of strangers,
Each with their own demons.
We'd talk a bit and pass the gun to each person in the circle.
I'm just afraid of predators and thieves at this moment.We become so fragile.

 

[my_sundown]

I'd be in, think it'd help with SI/ loneliness.

 

[Lookingtoflyfree]

I would love this and not to be alone - just a few friends as we say goodbye. It is more of a celebration than despair and we would't be alone. I love this.

 

[mrelief82]

I could do either or, but would prefer someone to charcoal with possibly. I've read many cases overseas where cars full of people all CO together

Thats what im thinking .

 

[strangelife]

I've read about cases in Japan where 6 people in a car died from carbon monoxide. It is very interesting if this method is not so stable, but they used disposable grills and everyone died, as they write in the articles
It's easier in a team, I think that's the point of such groups

 

[Unattainable666]

I would definitely be for a pact. No one wants to go alone. I agree with the others. Just to have someone close by to hug and to take my last breadth with is very comforting. It would be wonderful to be held by someone who cared about me at the last minute whether they decided to ctb or not. Selfish?

 

[hopeless08]

Personally I don't like the idea of a suicide pact. It puts too much pressure on each other to follow through, and if one party doesn't then it introduces guilt from the one who backed out & resentment from the other party.

In addition to that, what if your attempt fails, but the other person succeeds? If you find yourself awake with a dead partner, you'll be in a whole lot of trouble through no fault of your own. Or vice versa - they'll be in big trouble.

Lastly, it's very difficult to find someone trustworthy in real life or online. There is a risk that they'll tattle on you, sometimes not deliberately - could be as simple as the other person's friend noticing someone new (you) they're hanging out with and asking a bunch of questions - but also there are way too many people who get off on this stuff. Sure, you can meet someone online instead of in real life, but who knows what their true intentions are.

I agrée with you. I have made a suicide pact with a family member but I'm now feeling guilty. They say they want to go as much as I do but I'm worried that they will be scared that they would want to back out for several reasons of which I share.
And I know that if I died this person would not be able to live with the pain of losing me for even one second, so what if it is successful for me and not them. Also this person has a lot of medical issues besides mental, so I would have to be the one to administer the method to them, like assisted suicide and now I don't know if I would be able to do that, I'd feel like I'm pressuring them, killing them and also I would be terrified of the emotional pain of seeing them dead even though I would go right after.
Now I actually regret telling them about it and would rather do it on my own but there's two issues, one, that I don't want them to go through the pain of loosing me for I am they're life, I'm everything to them. The pain would be unbearable to them if they lost me and vice versa another issue is that they now know I'm going to get the method and plan on doing it. Everyday they ask me, you're not going to do it and leave me behind right, you wouldn't do that to me right?
Now that's all they think about, they are terrified and panicked. I feel that I put pressure on them and caused them to constantly worry. I feel horrible about that and I really regret telling them/making the pact. I'm so consumed by guilt. I don't know what to do, I'm really worried and confused as to how I'm going to go about this. I have no clue where to go from here.
If anyone has any advice I would truly appreciate it. Sorry for the rant.

 

[iwantodie89]

Hey I'm in NJ if anyone wants to do one.