Suicide Pact

[missporcelain]

I'm curious what people think of suicide pacts. The idea of dying in a spooky, remote location in solitude has never appealed to me. I am not encouraging a pact, but I am curious if anyone else has ever found an odd source of comfort in the idea of suicide with others in a peaceful location. I feel so demented even asking that, but it's just where my raw and honest headspace has landed this year. Again, I am not suggesting it or encouraging it. I am in a bit of a fragile place right now and just curious as to what goes on in everyone else's headspace and if you can relate.

 

[Lookoutbelow]

Sure, it would be nice to die with company.

 

[trist]

i don't mind dying alone but the idea of a suicide pact appeals to me too. especially because it would be much harder to back out (for me at least)

 

[Mistiie]

I'm not sure about a suicide pact, but to be able to start the process with whatever medication I intend to go out with whilst being with others whilst they didn't judge me and let me just die whilst being around others would be spectacular. Not that anyone would let me do that. Unless I did it as a joke, pretended it was a different harmless thing like baking soda or flour or if I slipped it into my drink?

 

[letsgetittogo]

I'm curious what people think of suicide pacts. The idea of dying in a spooky, remote location in solitude has never appealed to me. I am not encouraging a pact, but I am curious if anyone else has ever found an odd source of comfort in the idea of suicide with others in a peaceful location. I feel so demented even asking that, but it's just where my raw and honest headspace has landed this year. Again, I am not suggesting it or encouraging it. I am in a bit of a fragile place right now and just curious as to what goes on in everyone else's headspace and if you can relate.

I've had a suicide pact before in which the other person ended up backing out. I'm totally okay with that, at the end of the day it's their decision to stay; but I can't lie, it was extremely comforting to plan / talk with someone about it. I felt a lot more comfortable doing it with someone I care about

 

[Ailashan]

I am curious if anyone else has ever found an odd source of comfort in the idea of suicide with others in a peaceful location.

My dream would be to die of blood loss/meds intoxication while being hugged by someone affectionate, but that's only in my dreams haha, in reality i am alone

 

[IsThisEverything]

It's not nice to do big things alone, and there aren't many things bigger than ending your life. So I get why people would want company. Personally however I want to be alone, as it feels like a private affair for me and I worry about potentially encouraging someone else if I did it with them.

 

[CRT Seal TV]

I would use a suicide pact to help me kill myself. But I would feel bad about cuddling with someone as I die. Especially since if someone would give me that affection. I would rather cuddle than kill myself.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I had a half joking, half serious pact with a childhood friend. We would talk about jumping off a building together. We weren't exactly serious about doing it but we were definitely both suicidal. It was a massive comfort to be able to talk to someone about it. Even to make dark humour out of the situation. I don't think I'd do it now though. It takes a massive amount of trust I think.

 

[letsgetittogo]

My dream would be to die of blood loss/meds intoxication while being hugged by someone affectionate, but that's only in my dreams haha, in reality i am alone

This is the dream lol

 

[WonderingSoul]

I'd prefer to CTB alone, but if I had the chance, I would definitely do an S pact. Thing is, I don't think I could find anyone to do it with me locally. Even if I do, most likely is probably a fed.

My dream would be to die of blood loss/meds intoxication while being hugged by someone affectionate, but that's only in my dreams haha, in reality i am alone

That's my dream too. I'd love that.

 

[lyiu]

honestly i think i would want to die with someone too- i dont want to die with a huge group of people tho- only the 2 of us

 

[Ailashan]

This is the dream lol

Yeah, i'll be just fine with hanging anyways

 

[R_N]

Not my thing personally.

 

[Archness]

It'd be nice. Being in physical contact /w someone, fading out to death on nitrogen. But more likely I'd die alone, in some dark cold woods with the moon above. Just a mess with from a gunshot.

If there was anyone I'd feel comfortable having a suicide pact with, a part of me would want to continue life with them. Unfortunately, that may not be possible; and it isn't like I'd be in that situation in the first place. I'm open to it, but only if we're close.

Honestly no one I can be truly open with, have had to kept my mouth shut or put on a mask. SaSu's the only place I can be this way. It'd be... Liberating if someone from this place came to me IRL.

 

[Some place nice]

I am afraid of being alone even tho I always am, I hate it. I would love to have a pact.

 

[wanttodie]

I would use a suicide pact to help me kill myself.

 

[Meimi18]

Well, I would want the other person to live and be happy, so it would probably be less of a "pact" and more just straight up assisted suicide. I would worry about the legal ramifications though, I wouldn't them to get in trouble.
The company would be nice though

 

[Duality]

Personally I don't like the idea of a suicide pact. It puts too much pressure on each other to follow through, and if one party doesn't then it introduces guilt from the one who backed out & resentment from the other party.

In addition to that, what if your attempt fails, but the other person succeeds? If you find yourself awake with a dead partner, you'll be in a whole lot of trouble through no fault of your own. Or vice versa - they'll be in big trouble.

Lastly, it's very difficult to find someone trustworthy in real life or online. There is a risk that they'll tattle on you, sometimes not deliberately - could be as simple as the other person's friend noticing someone new (you) they're hanging out with and asking a bunch of questions - but also there are way too many people who get off on this stuff. Sure, you can meet someone online instead of in real life, but who knows what their true intentions are.

 

[Yaffle]

Not so sure about an actual pact but would crave having a real life friend to openly talk about "our" suicidal feelings and methods.

Maybe, who knows, it might become a pact.

I'm not advertising for a "pact partner" but would have to be a female, I talk much better to women plus it might be nice to hug at times.

I'm so very alone in my awful dark thoughts.

 

[A_quietboi]

I'd love to have a suicide pact tbh

 

[worstgirl7716]

I think it would be nice. I don't know. I just know if I suggested it to my friend, she'd say no even though she is also suicidal. The idea of one of us failing and losing the other is too horrible

 

[sleepy10]

Honestly i would love that i often envision spending a fun weekend in a super fancy hotel and on the last night of the stay having us take our lives together holding hands. It makes me think that if its done at the same time then i could find that person easier on the other side too. idk why death sounds so comforting to me? i truly believe i was supposed to die months ago by a car but i never did. i truly feel that the extra time i got on this Earth was not meant to happen.

 

[Toobrokentofix]

I have considered it because I hate how alone I have always felt and scared of SI ruining my plans. I always felt too guilty in case the other person's heart wasn't in it as much as mine. I also think I'm a bit of a cockraoch when it comes to surviving attempts... knowing my luck, my partner would succeed I'd survive it n get done for assisting someone else!

 

[kittyswift]

some old friends of mine had a suicide pact. only one person was successful- everyone else either backed out or were unsuccessful. that kind of put me off the idea because depending on the method i worry about the uncertainty- will my partners attempt work? will mine? will my partner(s) back out? id like to not die alone but i wouldn't want my partner to face legal trouble if i succeeded and they didn't. equally i wouldn't want the legal trouble either if i survived.

 

[Teleftaía Anapnoí]

All I wanted most was someone at the moment of my death, sometimes it seems easier that way. But I think I'll go alone as I have to, death is something that needs to be faced alone.

 

[DEATH IS FREEDOM]

Humans are social creatures so why wouldn´t we want to die with others - everything else would be strange.

 

[sleepy10]

i would 100% join a pact. It doesn't need to be a creepy location. In my mind it would be comforting to have someone to go with. And in my mind it be easier to find them on the other side.

 

[wanttodie]

me to i would 100% join a pact

 

[bridgegirl]

To me, it sounds incredibly peaceful and almost intimate. I would be a lot less afraid, if I had someone with me. It would be a comfort.