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- May 5, 2022
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Obviously, not true.
I have come to accept that when people use that phrase it doesn't pertain to the act of self termination. It's more about the moment when you chose to give up on life.
The act of simply saying " I quit. " is probably the easiest thing to do when everything in your world goes wrong. In reality, it just means you stop putting in effort or energy.
No more movement in the direction you've been heading.
Nothing is more of a struggle than following up on a choice about the future. Be it deciding you want to CTB or deciding you want to WTS. (points if you can guess WTS)
I find that there are some technical differences though.
Sure, living is hard... but it's the default setting. You just have to keep following the programing of your human brain. Sleep. Wake up. Urinate. Hygenics. Eat. Work. Adult. Repeat. You kinda go with the flow no matter how hard it is and it just happens.
Deciding to CTB however is just as much of a struggle in terms of difficulty only in this case you are fighting against your better nature so to speak. You are going against the grain and every step forward is met with resistance in the form of fear, survival instinct, and many other sub-catagories.
In all honesty, they both suck ass.
One is just a slow crawl and the other is a fast dash.
Both end the same. But are justifiable. Dealers choice.
I have come to accept that when people use that phrase it doesn't pertain to the act of self termination. It's more about the moment when you chose to give up on life.
The act of simply saying " I quit. " is probably the easiest thing to do when everything in your world goes wrong. In reality, it just means you stop putting in effort or energy.
No more movement in the direction you've been heading.
Nothing is more of a struggle than following up on a choice about the future. Be it deciding you want to CTB or deciding you want to WTS. (points if you can guess WTS)
I find that there are some technical differences though.
Sure, living is hard... but it's the default setting. You just have to keep following the programing of your human brain. Sleep. Wake up. Urinate. Hygenics. Eat. Work. Adult. Repeat. You kinda go with the flow no matter how hard it is and it just happens.
Deciding to CTB however is just as much of a struggle in terms of difficulty only in this case you are fighting against your better nature so to speak. You are going against the grain and every step forward is met with resistance in the form of fear, survival instinct, and many other sub-catagories.
In all honesty, they both suck ass.
One is just a slow crawl and the other is a fast dash.
Both end the same. But are justifiable. Dealers choice.
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