Venting suicide is my only comfort

[_finaza]

i honestly just think i will end it all. i just want to put a shotgun through my mouth and just shoot. death sounds so comforting it just hurts once and you never have to feel pain again. that's what doctors say about shots or piercers about piercing, it hurts once and that's it, but it's just a lie because it hurts multiple times if you do it again, and you have to. with death it's just one time and that's it. no more pain. no more suffering. yes if you kill yourself you will be in excruciating pain but for a little bit and that just brings me so much comfort. i keep telling my therapist that i want to kill myself but then i say "but I won't it's too hard" and it's not. it's really easy if you do it right. they just never understand what i want to say

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be such a relief to have access to that method, I understand why you'd find comfort in it, in my case the thought of not-existing for all eternity certainly is the only thing that's close to a comfort, it comforts me to think of the permanent end to all suffering. But anyway, best wishes.

 

[thepiecessatup]

I also only get any comfort from thinking about and planning my suicide. My life is unbearable emotionally and now also I have so many problems and fears. Suicide is the only option I think.