Suicide due to ugliness

[jj83]

Does anyone else's suicidal ideation stem from thinking they're ugly?

 

[Futile]

More like knowing that I'm ugly yes

 

[death137]

Yes. Being ugly and short is painful. The only thing that can make me hopeful is love but this isn't going to happen.

 

[poisonedminds]

Not exactly the same, but a big part of it comes from thinking i'm fat.

 

[Celerity]

I'm not exactly attractive, but I'm not hideous. It's more my variously odious and boring personality that keeps people at bay.

 

[It'sNotLookingGood]

Does anyone else's suicidal ideation stem from thinking they're ugly?

Kinda. The fact I am ugly has GREATLY exacerbated my mental illnesses, and social anxieties/ineptitudes.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I'm not that attractive. This is one of the reasons I want to CTB

 

[int5]

Yes I developed BDD, which made me obssesed with the way I look.

 

[WornOutLife]

I've been suicidal since I was 12 but at my 30s, I gained lots of weight and became even more suicidal. I couldn't look myself in the mirror so, I kinda understand what you mean.

Now, I just don't give a damn about looks! (ironically, I lost 10 pounds during the last two months without moving at all lol)

 

[ShePastAway]

It's sad that society is kinder to people who are conventionally attractive. To anyone who feels ugly, just want to say I think you're beautiful inside and I wish you lots of love and all the best.

 

[FuneralCry]

Probably more the ugliness of my mind, consciousness can be a repulsive thing. I know I'm not physically attractive either and I have always been self conscious of that. I understand how that can make people want to ctb as it can send us into mental despair if we perceive ourselves in a negative way.

 

[Celerity]

Probably more the ugliness of my mind, consciousness can be a repulsive thing. I know I'm not physically attractive either and I have always been self conscious of that. I understand how that can make people want to ctb as it can send us into mental despair if we perceive ourselves in a negative way.

Yeah, I can't even say I'm beautiful on the inside. It really hurts to know that you're being rejected down to your very soul (or as close as the material world can get to it).

 

[LeGuitarist]

Not exactly my looks, but rather my personality. I don't think I would be so suicidal if I were less lazy, more friendly, less insensitive.

 

[Zulk]

Not exactly my looks, but rather my personality. I don't think I would be so suicidal if I were less lazy, more friendly, less insensitive.

This is me... I hate most people. People tend to like me, I just don't usually like them back. I have a high IQ, which is a blessing and a curse. Ignorance truly does seem like bliss for the masses.

 

[LenkaX]

If a man is ugly, he's going to suffer a lot because of women's rejection. No woman wants an ugly guy.

That's the reason for my CTB which will be soon.

 

[Celerity]

[Removed]

Fucking hell. How are you still alive? Jesus H Christ.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

What you think is ugly, someone else might find attractive

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Yeah I kind of have this too. Growing up both my older brother and best friend had like model good looks and I was not so attractive. I always wished I was the kind of guy that could attract attention or hook up easily because of my looks but it wasn't to be. I always had to work hard to get anywhere with girls. It's always been tiring and a pain in the butt. Now idc so much because I'm older but my insecurities meant I didn't live a very full or happy life as a young person.

 

[737492]

I've thought about it before. Few doctors have suspected that I have body dysmorphic disorder because of how much suffering some of my features bring me

But right now I think less of committing suicide because of them and more of saving up for plastic surgery.

 

[Celerity]

I've thought about it before. Few doctors have suspected that I have body dysmorphic disorder because of how much suffering some of my features bring me

But right now I think less of committing suicide because of them and more of saving up for plastic surgery.

So do you mean to say that *a* few doctors have said you have body dysmorphia or that very few do because you are so unattractive?

 

[It'sNotLookingGood]

What you think is ugly, someone else might find attractive

I hear this sorta thing said a lot, and I find it aggravating tbh.

Nobody will find me more attractive, because of my lopsided, asymmetrical masseter muscles. It's simply delusional to believe so.

The same is true for people who have facial features like a recessed chin, or crooked nose, or poorly defined zygomatic arch/cheeks bones, or eyes with a negative canthal tilt and off-set interpupil distance.

There isn't a silver-lining, so comfort me by saying "damn, being ugly must suck. sorry friend", rather than selling me a fairy-tale story.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

I hear this sorta thing said a lot, and I find it aggravating tbh.

It is a big load of bullshit. There is a general sense of aesthetics and standards of beauty that no one wants to admit exists. On a genetic level we are wired to find certain traits attractive or repulsive. While small differences in standards may exist from person to person, this is not the same thing as 'beauty is in the eye of the beholder' or other fake platitudes people keep repeating ad nauseam.

 

[Lady black]

Yes it's one of my reasons

 

[LenkaX]

What you think is ugly, someone else might find attractive

That's a bluepill lie.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

[Removed]

Studies have proven that we rate ourselves far more intelligent, attractive and kind than we really are. This self positive bias makes it hard to be completely objective with ourselves.

Also people lie so they don't hurt your feelings. Whenever I see those 'rate me' posts online I cringe so hard. The person asking is almost always extremely unattractive yet everyone floods in offering false praise.

 

[happylilsht]

That's my only reason and i know, it's not up for speculation it's a fact, and if being a genuinely ugly girl wasn't enough i'm actually socially inept as well so it's over i would be able to cope if i was able to socialize normally and kill time and have fun that way even online but i'm a retard I can't force it out of me i'm basically in observer mode, the extreme lack of social skill hurts the most rn i feel so trapped
So i just want it over with coz it's painful af

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I've thought about it before. Few doctors have suspected that I have body dysmorphic disorder because of how much suffering some of my features bring me

But right now I think less of committing suicide because of them and more of saving up for plastic surgery.

This is how I feel as well. But I know I'm too tired to even work towards those goals anymore I just want to CTB.

Studies have proven that we rate ourselves far more intelligent, attractive and kind than we really are. This self positive bias makes it hard to be completely objective with ourselves.

Also people lie so they don't hurt your feelings. Whenever I see those 'rate me' posts online I cringe so hard. The person asking is almost always extremely unattractive yet everyone floods in offering false praise.

Very true.

That's my only reason and i know, it's not up for speculation it's a fact, and if being a genuinely ugly girl wasn't enough i'm actually socially inept as well so it's over i would be able to cope if i was able to socialize normally and kill time and have fun that way even online but i'm a retard I can't force it out of me i'm basically in observer mode, the extreme lack of social skill hurts the most rn i feel so trapped
So i just want it over with coz it's painful af

me too. It's pretty much over for myself as I'm an unattractive girl. And people want to tell me it gets better ? Yeah right

 

[eternalmelancholy]

[Removed]

I think I am just smart enough to realize how stupid I am. Compared to people who are too stupid to realize they are stupid. People tend to be overly emotional and thus cannot be relied on for objective feedback.

This is the same thing when people say money doesn't matter or that it doesn't buy happiness. It is basically telling poor people to fuck off. I want to know just how happy they can be when they are struggling to pay for medical bills and a place to live.

I guess I get it. People are too busy living their own lives to care about others. But if that is the case why even offer empty platitudes in the first place? They should just keep their unwanted opinions to themselves.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

[Removed]

It is probably for the best not to bring up personal issues even if someone asks. They will never understand or even care. After all it is not their life or their problem.

My main reasons why I want to ctb is health problems and financial woes. People offer pretty shitty advice if you let them. No amount of empty platitudes and pleasantries will fix my health or money problems. That is why I am willing to listen but seldomly offer my opinion. Which can bring its own problems like accusations of being cold and uncaring.

I guess you just have to fake it and go with the flow if you don't want to become a social pariah. Saying things that are uncomfortable to hear is the fastest way to become hated. Even if there is truth in it.

 

[hahabye]

Yes I developed BDD, which made me obssesed with the way I look.

Same here