Suicide doesn't feel enough

[Dor]

I think I want to mutilate myself to death.

 

[GerMann]

Why? Nobody has a profit if you do something like that, did you hurt someone?

 

[JustAboutDone]

Are you feeling like this:

"I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real"

Trent Reznor, Nine Inch Nails

 

[Dor]

Why? Nobody has a profit if you do something like that, did you hurt someone?

No. Sorry for making this stupid thread. I was in a weird mood and hadn't sleep for a while. It's attention seeking, nobody would care if I declared I would kill myself in this forum, but I guess I thought if I went to self mutilation some might. This how pathetic of a person I am.

 

[JustAboutDone]

No. Sorry for making this stupid thread. I was in a weird mood and hadn't sleep for a while. It's attention seeking, nobody would care if I declared I would kill myself in this forum, but I guess I thought if I went to self mutilation some might. This how pathetic of a person I am.

Don't be so tough on yourself, of course people would care. Lack of sleep is cruel, it really messes your head up.

How are you feeling now? X

 

[Dor]

Don't be so tough on yourself, of course people would care. Lack of sleep is cruel, it really messes your head up.

How are you feeling now? X

Thank you, you are one of the kindest persons I've ever come across. I'm feeling alright now.

 

[JustAboutDone]

Thank you, you are one of the kindest persons I've ever come across. I'm feeling alright now.

Oh good, honestly the ups and downs of depression are just horrible; no one would think any the worse of you - everyone has been there. Some days, even minutes you want to scream and cut your head off the next minute you want to curl up in a ball and sob. It's rubbish isn't it.

 

[Dor]

Oh good, honestly the ups and downs of depression are just horrible; no one would think any the worse of you - everyone has been there. Some days, even minutes you want to scream and cut your head off the next minute you want to curl up in a ball and sob. It's rubbish isn't it.

I'm not even that depressed any longer, I just feel soul less.

Everywhere I go people can notice I'm a soul less rat, there's no personality in me, no real life in my eyes. I never fit in. Even here without seeing me people notice. I am not human, I think I left being a human a while ago.

I am scum.

 

[21Neberg]

I'm not even that depressed any longer, I just feel soul less.

Everywhere I go people can notice I'm a soul less rat, there's no personality in me, no real life in my eyes. I never fit in. Even here without seeing me people notice. I am not human, I think I left being a human a while ago.

I am scum.

This is hypocritical coming from me, but don't think of yourself as scum. Don't kick yourself about creating this post either - the entire point of this forum is to have an open-minded discussion about suicide, and you're simply contributing :)

 

[Broken]

No. Sorry for making this stupid thread. I was in a weird mood and hadn't sleep for a while. It's attention seeking, nobody would care if I declared I would kill myself in this forum, but I guess I thought if I went to self mutilation some might. This how pathetic of a person I am.

@Dor you are not pathetic! I have talked with some of the bravest kindest people I have ever had the privilege of talking to on here. You are one of us and we support each other

 

[Xerxes]

Hey we have all those feelings ranging from wanting to die peacefully to rage where we feel self loathing towards ourselves. I've have had those frequently where I just want to drink antifreeze knowing the pain behind it because I feel I don't deserve or I'm unworthy of a peaceful death. I always felt it came off as attention-seeking, but we're not in control about what we say because it's our self-hatred that dictates our feelings and changes our mind.