Ok first, you are now safe. You have a bf that cares and a family willing to take you in.
Find comfort in that.
Maybe it's possible now you can work on some healing techniques to try to find peace with living instead of dying?
i can't suggest you take your life or offer ways to do that, it's unethical. But since you have no options at all, that don't involve torturous agony, you are stuck with living.
Use your bf for support. Talk about things. Tell him. Let him and his family love you.
i wish I had more to offer but I don't.
The only possibility is hanging as others have mentioned .. but consider location .. i know it's frowned upon to say this but, devastating this family that took you in would be horrible.
@autumnal. Fucking stop it .. just stop .. haha? NO! It's not funny. It's inappropriate here but you can't seem to figure out when it's ok and when it's not. Would it feel good if someone poked fun at your past attempts? Why aren't you using your previous attempt knowledge to educate instead of being sarcastic. I mean Jesus you have vast experience of what not to do.
Hi,
Have been browsing the boards and megathreads for over a week now and thought I'd share some questions.
Attempted an overdose with prescription medication, but was found and briefly hospitalised in psych ward.
Have attempted with NN method but had very little luck in finding and sufficiently compressing my carotids.
Same poor result attempting with tourniquet/ligature method.
Have attempted with C02 in bag (vinegar/bicarb reaction) but SI led to tearing it off.
Have attempted cutting carotids with a knife but missed and instead cut something more minor which bled quite profusely for a while but ultimately clotted.
I am now looking at either one of the drugs mentioned in the megathreads (SN/N/F etc) or an exit bag using helium/nitrogen/argon.
Being in Australia, customs importation regulations and restrictions on gasses and medication sales are both very stringent compared to elsewhere in the world.
Can anyone with some local knowledge suggest sources for any of the drugs and gasses involved? Feel free to PM me if easier/more discreet.
Autumnal
Sorry OP.. I'm in a ripping bad place knowing I'm dying soon .. like you're desperate to die, I'm desperate to live. And I am too sensitive for the funny crap in the wrong places.