Suicide as a Sanctuary

[Astral Storm]

Suicide as a Sanctuary

Many think that suicide is some horrible thing. While it's true that it can be from a terrible pain and I can relate to that as well, but the thought of it is just so comforting to me. This might sound strange and I mean no disrespect to anyone who suffers from any kind of torment and will resort to suicide.

Sorry if it's too long but I need to write this out so much. The thought that I can leave this brutal and violent world makes me feel at ease. I know it's weird but it makes me feel so happy. I am not comfortable living in this world at all. Not living is much more better. I have a relatively good life and it may seem good on the outside but people just dismiss one thing about it. They dismiss me and what I really think about this.

I was thrown into this world without my consent. Into a world which is full of suffering, death, injustice, cruelty and violence. To be honest, I don't understand those who want to live here at all costs. I wish that my parents would have considered the harshness of existence and wouldn't have me. I know that I will never have children as I cannot justify this torment they would experience. I witnessed loss that many consider to be a natural and normal part of life. While it is natural and normal as well, I never wanted to experience this just because there's some fleeting and useless pleasure. No amount of pleasure can justify the pain, grief and all of the horrors of existence.

I have such hatred for life and existence. Maybe it's because of sensitivity. I feel suffering in such a raw way that I cannot bear it. For me, the problem is life itself. I destroy and cause harm to other beings by simply existing. I hate that I have to cause violence to live. I am forced to even if I don't want to. How can I continue with this brutal realization? I cannot deny this thing and now it will plague every single second of my life. Honestly, I would rather choose death if this is the price of my existence. I am against violence and cruelty so much that I am against life itself. Sorry if it sounds a bit mad and extreme but this is the whole existence. There will never be peace here and it's crushing me. I wish peace for everything and everyone. For humans, for animals, even for the plants that compete with each other for some sunshine.

My mind is filled with these screams all the time. I cannot ever stop thinking about it. Why do innocents suffer for no reason? This has been going on for billions of years and for what? For nothing. The worst that it looks like that it has no end. I just want to scream at everything. I wish for no competition, cruelty, exploitment and violence at all. Everything is so cold here. I would rather leave this place and have nothing than this if this is what it's all about. I don't want to live here and death seems so much better. The only thing that keeps me here are my pets and my family. I really don't want to cause them any kind of pain but the thought of living is just so dreadful.

It looks like I will have to wait till they go, though I am dreading the day when I will have to watch my loved ones die. It's one of the worst pain ever. Honestly, I feel a bit guilty about this as I really want to make my life about helping others but I just can't go on. I don't know if it's fine to just give up while there are others who are suffering. Either way, I know that it doesn't matter what will happen in the future. I will always wish for death and when I will do it, I will be happy to go.

 

[FuneralCry]

The thought of ceasing to exist comforts me as well. To me, life is just endless problems and suffering all for no purpose. I believe that life should not be a thing in the first place. Non existence will always be preferable to living for me, as the dead cannot suffer, only the living can. Death is the end of all problems and suffering and there is nothing negative about being dead which is why suicide can never be wrong.
As long as someone lives, things can easily get so much worse and death removes that possibility.
I also hate life itself and your feelings are understandable. The only thing that I look forward to is permanent rest, as there is no relief in this life. Best wishes.

 

[Hope:-)]

It used to be when I was younger. Now I'm truly serious about it, it's more like a grim reality I'm coming to accept.x

 

[nys]

I understand that. The best possible thing would be to get to choose whether we wanted to exist or not, before we were born- since that obviously can't happen, the next best thing is getting the choice to stop existing whenever we want. If I'm dead then nothing can ever hurt me anymore because I can't be hurt if I don't exist. I'll be blissfully unaware of everything that's happening in life. I won't get happiness but I won't get sadness or pain either. Whatever problem I have can be solved by ctb'ing since every problem wouldn't exist if life didn't exist. The right to die feels like such an obvious thing to have but pro-lifers think its such an atrocity to give people that right. The real atrocity is forcing them to be alive in pain when death would let them escape that pain. Makes no sense to me

 

[Rational man]

You have eloquently presented your situation. I also believe there comes a point in life where many,people think about their imminent dying of the body. Some people ACCEPT this so easily whereas some struggle, even at 100. You would think that at 100, the decay and dysfunctional body is a clear hint of imminent death.

Cessation of life is a natural process. We shouldn't fear the inevitable. Unfortunately, humankind thinks he can live forevermore with the help of medicine and beauty products. Tragically, this way of thinking is delusional like the world we live in. Each and everyone will eventually be shoved into the ground. The body will reunite with nature. Wherein, Earth will implode into the far reaches of the galaxy when our sun explodes.

My cessation , free from disease and pain.

 

[Euthanza]

Suicide sanctuary should be a pleasant experience in comparison with horrible natural death, only when people stop stigmatizing suicide. There are thousands dumb ways to die, it's a shame of science not to work suicidology out in accordance with thanatology, instead of ignorantly against it.

Nothing could be more pleasant other than well-prepared, an expected death, a peaceful suicide.