Discussion suicide as a "plan B"

[Chuunibyou]

who else doesn't want to die, but has suicide as a plan B exit strategy if something specific happens (or doesn't happen)?

I've said before that I wouldn't actually go through with a suicide despite being suicidal, but I've started thinking that's not actually true. I'll kill myself if I end up in a situation where I'm being forced to move back in with my family. that's my condition. the last time I was forced to move in with them was my only serious attempt, and I would do it again if those circumstances return. it's that bad living with them. I absolutely refuse to let that happen again, and having an "out" just in case brings me comfort.

I hate being disabled and ill and unable to work. I hate relying on others for survival in a country that'd rather I just die. I'm so so tired of it all. but I can manage to survive a little longer as long as I am receiving help from my friends. if I lose that and only have my family, then there would be no point in continuing to prolong my suffering.

I don't know if this post makes sense. my brain feels fried. I really hate myself, I hate thinking about the future, and I hate thinking about all the things my family did to me in the past.

 

[wtg]

who else doesn't want to die, but has suicide as a plan B exit strategy if something specific happens (or doesn't happen)?

Nope, it has been my plan A since I dont even know when anymore

 

[Eudaimonic]

It's my plan A

 

[khairan]

More than a plan B I would say CTB is a late stage of my plan A I've been procrastinating.

I think sooner or later death and I will converge on my own terms.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Idk what I want honestly. I know I don't have a lot of energy. I know I'm scared of dying. doesn't mean I won't go as I've proven in the past I just want to make smart decisions . it more a plan A at this point. a tentative plan A cause I know SI is strong, and there are reasons not to. that's the best I can describe it.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I never ever thought it would even be something to consider. But then things changed, and now it's plan A.

 

[vitbar]

It was my plan A. Medication and therapy have made life livable again, but suicide is still on the cards if things get worse.