Discussion Suicide and happiness!

[end_terminal]

Does anyone get oddly happy when planning their suicide? Aside from the joy of well, finally being gone!

It always gives me a sense of purpose and routine. Gotta clean your room, gotta get the materials needed! Gotta think of what song you'll die to or how you're going to make your resting place super cozy. (2 thick blankets! A bunch of plushies and warm reading socks!)

This is probably a bit superficial, but what clothes you'll wear to die with or keeping yourself clean!

There's this sense of joy I can't explain, of salvation and peace! Like sorta like a warm embrace? Maybe I'm just romanticizing it, but I don't feel any sadness or pain at the prospect. Just this utter joy!!

Like I'll finally find peace and happiness!

 

[peewee]

yea, its sad but its the only thing that gives me comfort now. i also just discovered a more peaceful method and if i can acquire the stuff then i feel even better

 

[Charmander07]

This may sound rlly toxic but I am partially doing it while thinking about what other people will think. There's some people that I hope will change for the better or at least realise they aren't as nice as they think when I die. But yeah I get what you mean, it just gives me such a burst of energy just thinking about it which feels very unusual

 

[SleeplessAndSad]

I like to throw out stuff to minimize the things people have to deal with after i am gone.

Ironically having a tidy room and less things makes me happy and less suicidal lol

 

[madwoman]

Tidying up my affairs and making a bucket list and getting rid of things and anything that leads towards my goal of CTB is giving me peace and comfort.

 

[unevencompromise]

Does anyone get oddly happy when planning their suicide? Aside from the joy of well, finally being gone!

It always gives me a sense of purpose and routine. Gotta clean your room, gotta get the materials needed! Gotta think of what song you'll die to or how you're going to make your resting place super cozy. (2 thick blankets! A bunch of plushies and warm reading socks!)

This is probably a bit superficial, but what clothes you'll wear to die with or keeping yourself clean!

There's this sense of joy I can't explain, of salvation and peace! Like sorta like a warm embrace? Maybe I'm just romanticizing it, but I don't feel any sadness or pain at the prospect. Just this utter joy!!

Like I'll finally find peace and happiness!

After several attempts to find happiness, I finally found out I'll just find it when I die. There's absolutely no reasons for me to stay in a place where I just feel pain. I believe that when I kill myself I'll finally be embraced with peace and all the suffering will be gone.

 

[cute_cat123]

Does anyone get oddly happy when planning their suicide? Aside from the joy of well, finally being gone!

It always gives me a sense of purpose and routine. Gotta clean your room, gotta get the materials needed! Gotta think of what song you'll die to or how you're going to make your resting place super cozy. (2 thick blankets! A bunch of plushies and warm reading socks!)

This is probably a bit superficial, but what clothes you'll wear to die with or keeping yourself clean!

There's this sense of joy I can't explain, of salvation and peace! Like sorta like a warm embrace? Maybe I'm just romanticizing it, but I don't feel any sadness or pain at the prospect. Just this utter joy!!

Like I'll finally find peace and happiness!

No. I don't feel that happy thinking about suicide. I think of it as a VERY depressing outcome i have to go through

Sorry I edit this a lot I'm sometimes very paranoid and it makes me feel calmer

 

[fedup1982]

Yes, i went through that phase. After enough attempts it wears fucking thin, all you're left with is this dread for the hell future methods might put you through

 

[BGman89]

I think it tends to be like that at first

 

[BlockHammer]

Well it'a a mix feeling actually, on one hand i felt happy because i dont have to deal with this bullshit again. But on the same time, eventhough my life now has turn into shit, i still had some good memory about it and man i do gonna miss my life if i decided to kill myself

 

[left0vers]

yea, its sad but its the only thing that gives me comfort now. i also just discovered a more peaceful method and if i can acquire the stuff then i feel even better

What's the method?

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

yeah with my suicide I'm happy I'm finally escaping hell = life and this evil world

 

[Afterglow]

Definitely not joyed by it, but still wishing it comes soon.

 

[aesthetic]

i can't wait to kill myself.

 

[rata1]

sometimes thinking about the possibility to ctb helped me to bear with life, for some time at least. but in the meantime this hasnt the same effect on me anymore. as i didnt do it till now, this thought has nearly no effect on me anymore. i wish some meteorite would fall down on me, so i wouldnt have to take the decision to ctb, decision i never had the balls to take until now. this meteorite would be the one time i always wished to have luck in my life. just one time be lucky, don't care about wining a jackpot, sudden death would be enough for me.....