Discussion Suicidal ideation

[Maddox67]

Does suicidal ideation ever leave us .ive tried to kill myself twice (and very almost succeeded)but now I'm on meds and counselling I'm doing a lot better but I still think about suicide 100 times a day minimum I've even got my next attempt planned.but its a little voice that's always there pushing me into doing it.and it knows as well as I do I'm gonna do it.does anyone feel like this?

 

[faust]

Suicidal ideation is not about me. Well, maybe it was when I was 16, however, I see it now as a completely rational thing. I don't think now about it every single moment, I simply know it will come soon and that's what I have to do.

 

[Klee]

Mine has improved. I used to spend a great portion of time writing out detailed plans, researching, comforting myself with the thought.
You eventually learn to push it aside a little at a time and focus on other things. I do still comfort myself with fleeting thoughts to an extent, when things get really difficult in life (and when I can't get to therapy, usually.)

 

[Luchs]

Does suicidal ideation ever leave us .ive tried to kill myself twice (and very almost succeeded)but now I'm on meds and counselling I'm doing a lot better but I still think about suicide 100 times a day minimum I've even got my next attempt planned.but its a little voice that's always there pushing me into doing it.and it knows as well as I do I'm gonna do it.does anyone feel like this?

That sucks, I feel you man.