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Spiralling Bunny
- Jul 27, 2024
- 25
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I don't know if its because of my mental health or what, but I'm obsessed with my friend. Bad. At first it was fine, but I'm certain he doesn't reciprocate my feelings at all, which is fine, but I'm panicking because my brain both wants to run but also make him stay with me. I'm scared he'll leave, the idea of him leaving makes my heart stop for a second.
Normally I would break contact but i cant. He's supposed to live with me. And he's my closest friend. I don't want to break contact.
I don't know if its reciprocal. I really doubt it is and no, I can't confess.
I think my mind is turning our platonic relationship to something romantic because of the things that are said. If I try to suggest we limit our living time together, its met with genuine (not angry, not aggressive) pushback. I think its feeding into my fear of abandonment. I hate being replaced or forgotten or left behind and he's someone who's finally saying he won't leave me. He also is someone who actually understands me. I'm rarely understood to my entirety, but he gets me. You know?
What am I supposed to do? Wait and see what happens? Maybe I'm overthinking things and this will all be fine, hell it may even work out and I'm panicking for no reason. I don't have anyone I can tell about this. If i needed to talk to anyone it would be him but obviously i cant do that. Has anyone experienced this before??
I don't know if its because of my mental health or what, but I'm obsessed with my friend. Bad. At first it was fine, but I'm certain he doesn't reciprocate my feelings at all, which is fine, but I'm panicking because my brain both wants to run but also make him stay with me. I'm scared he'll leave, the idea of him leaving makes my heart stop for a second.
Normally I would break contact but i cant. He's supposed to live with me. And he's my closest friend. I don't want to break contact.
I don't know if its reciprocal. I really doubt it is and no, I can't confess.
I think my mind is turning our platonic relationship to something romantic because of the things that are said. If I try to suggest we limit our living time together, its met with genuine (not angry, not aggressive) pushback. I think its feeding into my fear of abandonment. I hate being replaced or forgotten or left behind and he's someone who's finally saying he won't leave me. He also is someone who actually understands me. I'm rarely understood to my entirety, but he gets me. You know?
What am I supposed to do? Wait and see what happens? Maybe I'm overthinking things and this will all be fine, hell it may even work out and I'm panicking for no reason. I don't have anyone I can tell about this. If i needed to talk to anyone it would be him but obviously i cant do that. Has anyone experienced this before??
