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lovelulu

lovelulu

with stars in my eyes, crying as I wheel.
Jan 3, 2026
172
Like the title says, I would prefer to overdose. I dont want my parents to see my body hanging, you know? I'd rather them just see my lifeless body laying down somewhere rather than me hanging from a rope. I have no idea what to overdose on and I would really appreciate some help, which substances or medications could I overdose on and I could get pretty easily? And where would I get them? I really need an answer soon.
 
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geepeedee

geepeedee

no future
Feb 24, 2026
209
apparently there are sites on the clear web that sell nitazenes, but that's all I can tell you. fentanyl is gonna be dark web or street.
 
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lovelulu

lovelulu

with stars in my eyes, crying as I wheel.
Jan 3, 2026
172
apparently there are sites on the clear web that sell nitazenes, but that's all I can tell you. fentanyl is gonna be dark web or street.
im not too interested in fent anyway, so nitazenes will make do.
 
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peacebenow

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Apr 26, 2026
68
apparently there are sites on the clear web that sell nitazenes, but that's all I can tell you. fentanyl is gonna be dark web or street.
on the clear web as in general internet? how hard it must be to find.
 
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ilovenewyork

Experienced
Nov 16, 2025
256
There's those starbust candies. If you eat enough of them you'll die. Just have to find a source for volume purchase.
 
violetforever

violetforever

Elementalist
Dec 24, 2025
867
i wish overdose was simple. id rather a lifeless laying body than a hanging one.
 
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FrustratedMTFtrans

FrustratedMTFtrans

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Apr 17, 2026
43
A natural way would be to crack open 9-10 morello cherries, extract the kernels from the cracked stones, chew them thoroughly and finally swallow. As with apricot kernels, where you need around 20 kernels, you will sense an almond-like flavor, which is due to amygdalin being concerted to HCN and benzaldehyde by enzymes in the saliva, the flavor coming from the benzaldehyde. So you create your own cyanide poison for your CTB. I tried 3 plum stones and detected that flavor, but many more plum kernels are needed for any chance of a successful CTB.
 

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