Venting Stubborn

[vivia]

feelings hit a dead end, like the map just stops. tried dumb shit, it flopped, then more flops. always solo, like permanent afk. every time i start talking or venting, people get that look and bounce. no idea how many already did the same move on me. from the OGs to the ones i find online, they all end up just here for my noise. yesterday an old mate finally blew up and unloaded everything on me, lowkey humiliating. people i add online do the subtle cut, not blunt, but the vibe says "we're done." maybe i keep picking the wrong crowd or maybe i'm the glitch. either way, they get tired of my yapping every single time. wrong person, wrong room. should've kept this bottled. should've kept quiet. feels like people like me are meant to be background noise. everyone i know's just a work acquaintance or a surface-level contact. no one to get close to. no spot for me here. might as well whisper at a wall and call it a night. lol, what a vibe​

 

[FadingSnowFake]

I hear you. This is one place where I feel okay though, as part of the crowd somehow, even as background noise. Because most of us end up here with a common goal in mind, after reaching that dead end. If it makes you feel any better, I talk to walls all the time. Sending hugs.