struggling with resentment towards friends

[teethreceiver]

some of my friends struggle with mental health and post about it sometimes, one of them even makes vague suicidal posts. whenever I see these type of things or hear them vent i always just feel so angry, like ... "what would you know about being suicidal?"

theres no reason I should believe they arent actually struggling, but I just can't stand hearing about it. everytime one of them vents i just want to ctb to prove a point. oh im so much more miserable than you... so dumb

im not someone who publicly posts abt my feelings on platforms where people I know will see them, it feels kinda humiliating to me. I just dont get how they can post stuff like that, and I don't know if I should take it seriously either. ive been depressed my whole life and was only passively suicidal up until last year, and I used to vague post like my friends as well. now that im actively suicidal and rock bottom I cant help but compare my more mentally well self with my friends. like, ur not gonna kys, I know because I wasn't ever serious when posting like that either.

I guess im just projecting. either way I hate feeling like this towards people I care about. does anyone else experience this? :/

 

[Asya]

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[LastNite]

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I can read it

some of my friends struggle with mental health and post about it sometimes, one of them even makes vague suicidal posts. whenever I see these type of things or hear them vent i always just feel so angry, like ... "what would you know about being suicidal?"

theres no reason I should believe they arent actually struggling, but I just can't stand hearing about it. everytime one of them vents i just want to ctb to prove a point. oh im so much more miserable than you... so dumb

im not someone who publicly posts abt my feelings on platforms where people I know will see them, it feels kinda humiliating to me. I just dont get how they can post stuff like that, and I don't know if I should take it seriously either. ive been depressed my whole life and was only passively suicidal up until last year, and I used to vague post like my friends as well. now that im actively suicidal and rock bottom I cant help but compare my more mentally well self with my friends. like, ur not gonna kys, I know because I wasn't ever serious when posting like that either.

I guess im just projecting. either way I hate feeling like this towards people I care about. does anyone else experience this? :/

I know abt that feeling. It's kind of normal to be honest. When you're feeling so down and depressed you sort of ignore how others might be feeling. It makes sense to think your situation is worse than others. Ive thought that about myself once before, but it's totally normal.