Stopping Therapy Made Me Feel Better

[abruptum]

I was very reluctant to talk to people about this because of how counterintuitive it seems. Yet as I was going to therapy I realized that this person (my psychiatrist) was just one person on my path who could walk along the road with me and show me how to improve and how to feel any sorts of better. Yet as I kept going I realized hes only good for that section of my path. Hes not capable of going above and beyond and the more we walk the less useful he is to me and the more frustrating it gets. To give some personal anecdote to this, I was trying to explain that beyond just my depression and narcissistic behavior, I have these weird episodes of derealization and maybe even psychosis, and I dont know how to deal with them as my reality just shatters and I cannot tell where my existence lies. He would take questions like this and rather than answer them just backtrack and try to talk to me about other things completely unrelated with no meaning to get back to the subject I had just brought up. Anyways all of this and some more is what led my to eventually feel the want to no longer go. I felt bad at first because people tell you therapy is good and you need to go to get better, and I was far from better. But eventually I decided with the help of some people that it might be the smarter play to move on and try to rely on myself. Its not like im completely opposed to doing therapy ever again its just more a break for now to see how im able to handle the world and to see if my assumptions were correct.
Anyways yeah this feels really really good and today has been one of my happiest in a while. Unfortunately my bruises and burns of self harm are causing me some great physical pain, however besides that today has been wonderful :)

 

[Blue Rose]

Recently, I quit to go my clinic too. I came to have no money and I could not trust or like my doctor anymore.
First I had felt severe anxiety for some days and feared an imaginary aftermath of my decision.

Well, finally, I found that I was fine than what I had expected. Mostly I can control myself on my will.
I wish you would not be worried with your decision so much.

 

[abruptum]

Recently, I quit to go my clinic too. I came to have no money and I could not trust or like my doctor anymore.
First I had felt severe anxiety for some days and feared an imaginary aftermath of my decision.

Well, finally, I found that I was fine than what I had expected. Mostly I can control myself on my will.
I wish you would not be worried with your decision so much.

I am sorry you had to leave I will not worry too much I wish you the best I truly do <33

 

[Natty]

Therapists aren't one size fits all, the reality is that you need to shop around. Therapy shouldn't be or feel in anyway tiring or contentious, it also shouldn't really feel like each time you go in you're tackling all of the big problems. The process takes time and the right fit is important.

 

[Meditation guide]

Psychiatrists and psychologists have always been a complete waste of time and money for me. I felt like it SHOULD be helping me but instead it was just confusing me and not helping or making me feel worse. It amounts to a scam in my opinion. Nothing more. I'm glad you quit. The answer lies within yourself.

I know some people do need it and I'm not saying it's wrong for everyone.

 

[JustLosingMyself]

Haven't talked to the quack (aka consultant psychiatrist) since Feb 19th 2020 9h40 AM. Best I have felt in years.

 

[CatabolicSeed]

Same. I quit recently as well and it's like a weight off my chest.

 

[help56]

Quit but still
Not well. For me the challenge they were telling me to journal , going through my past and essentially telling me what I see on the web. My issues are needing fixing do talking won't solve them . They say it will help you cope with it and accepting it

 

[Regen]

Maybe this was the right decision for you. Most of the psychiatriats and psychologists I knew were not very good. But this dos not mean that this is all for nothing. There are psychologists which are helpful! But finding them ist so much difficult. Maybe your psychiatrist had a bad day, you can try to say exactly what you say to us. That you think, that he did not say anything about the psychosis and so. Maybe he understand. But If not, sometimes its very good to go to another one! You can make a date with somebody else and then you can decide If you go to this new one or not.

 

[niiina]

My therapist is nice, she really tries but I just want to ctb, there's nothing else in my life or in my mind, ctb is everything to me so she can't be useful anymore, I have nothing to say and anything she says to me is really "whatever", this is a dead woman walking, at this point nothing matters anymore

 

[Gray Wounds]

My friend's got some bullshit therapist. Paying some $123 dollars to that shit person who only says what his patients would want to hear. Do not know what therapy feels like or should be like but, seeing my friend kind of become a different person in a negative way, damn, that is not therapy at all.

 

[Disappointered]

I wish it wasn't true but after attempting talk therapy with a variety of "professionals" and then looking into its history and development, I came to the conclusion that it has always been a harmful scam, sometimes even wittingly. Even when it's not obvious to the "professional" that they are just a parasite who feeds off of vulnerable people ( both financially and psychically), they are playing a role that is not objectively helpful to anyone but themselves.

I'm sure some people have benefited to a small extent but even those cases are probably just the result of someone who is young and/or only had minor problems, and for whom going through the ritual of talking to an older or seemingly "wiser" adult was in itself a benefit. The therapist will use those cases as supposed evidence of their benefit to society while manufacturing a bunch of rationalizations about all the others, so as to perpetuate their self-serving willful blindness.

There was a big to-do (propaganda campaign really) ten or fifteen years ago about CBT. Anyone who thinks I'm referring to Cock and Ball Torture is fully excused since that probably works better on some people than any talk therapy, especially Cognitive Behavioural Therapy and its offshoots. It's a lot of hot air and after the latest display of corrupted and politicized "health science" during covidism, I have even less reason to trust any "science" relating to CBT than I did in the past, when I found it to be simplistic and manipulative. And I'm not the only one to have that opinion. I've talked with several other people who had similar reactions. Needless to say, "those" "datah" are unlikely to be circulated the way supposedly "scientific" surveys purporting to demonstrate the usefulness of CBT had been and probably still are.

If I and the others with similar reactions to CBT were stupid children and/or had come to understand life's purpose as servility to a bunch of "superiors" who need reality-tv styled renditions of our "reality-based" roles, I suppose we might have thought we benefited from having our minds manipulated into claiming to believe a series of contrived reinterpretations of events as more "reality based" than our previous interpretations, in which case everyone could call that a "successful outcome". Maybe that's as good as it gets but it didn't work for me or for many others and I'm not sure I even see that as an outcome worth aiming for.

TLDR: Unfortunately, most therapists are, at best, useless parasites. At worst they are harmful leeches who prey on weakened marks in need of fixing, eager for approval from authority figures who they want to see as trustworthy. Mistaking the authority figures in question as helpful wizard types who hold the secret key to one's eventual well-being, the weaklings return for years in pursuit of minor ongoing improvements (that, if they happen, are mistakenly attributed to the therapist's professional abilities) and a vague resolution of whatever is in the way of their "well-being" that is ever-imminent but paradoxically always distant, ostensibly because never yet fully earned.