Venting Stocking up CTB method

[deadfaery]

my method that I've chosen to use is overdosing on amitriptyline. I was able to get my dr to prescribe it to me about a month ago. We started at 25mg and a week ago increased to 50mg. My plan is to save all the pills until we increase to 100mg and stock up 2 months worth of 100mg. Then I'll overdose on everything I've saved amounting to approximately 9-10g which is the amount the pph recommends for a successful attempt. I just have to figure out how I'm going to take all of the pills without my body refusing to let me swallow them because I've overdosed a few times and now it's pretty tough for me to swallow even just a couple pills. I'm thinking I'll probably take them with a smoothie or yogurt to disguise them. I keep having urges to just od on the amount I have now but it's definitely not enough to kill me so I have to keep myself from being impulsive in the really rough moments. I relapsed on self harm and have been cutting myself to distract and give me enough pain to keep me from impulsively overdosing before I'm fully prepared. I feel pretty at peace with my decision I'm just so impatient, it's annoying having to wait each month to get my dose increased and stock up but I'm glad I finally was able to acquire the amitriptyline.

 

[wereqryan]

I once had Amitriptyline in order to create on the lethal cocktails PPH Handbook outlined, but later realized that I'd have to crush A HUGE number of pills to be able to make this cocktail and that put me off from pursuing this method any further. Otherwise, I had not just Amitriptyline, but other heart-stopping drugs too.

 

[Darkover]

i thought you need a bunch of drugs to do the amitriptyline method like diazepam as well

 

[deadfaery]

i thought you need a bunch of drugs to do the amitriptyline method like diazepam as well

I mean yeah if you want it to be super peaceful or whatever but the amitriptyline alone will kill you especially at that high of a dose. It will make you pass out too because it's used as a sleep aid as well.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand just wanting to be gone, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[Romanticize]

amitryptyline OD (even as high as 10g) is not reliable and not peaceful CtB method